I'm happy to say that after a little over 5 weeks since I left you with no contact ever since, that I have chosen to live my life seeking God in the places where I had emptyness, loneliness, feelings of being unworthy, and regret, and hopelessness that you put on me. God doesn't put that on me. He puts his nonjudgmental love on me and fills my heart with goodness and hope. God will be in my life forever and in eternity, whereas you were just a passing phase. I don't want to call you a mistake though. You were a poor choice of person for me. Everytime I think of you, however, I pray to God to bless you and keep his hand on you, and watch over you. If I had never spent all these years being abused by you, I would never know the true joy of living in real love--God's love. It's perfect love that can't be challenged and no one regrets the blessing of God. So all the best to you.