lemondust

The Dark Tower, Book 3 by Stephen King. I've been reading Stephen King since I was a young teenager, but only recently got into the Dark Tower books. They are fantastic. Stephen King is the only writer who actually gets me so lost in his stories that it takes me a while to 'disengage' from the world of the book. I feel as if I am living in the Dark Tower books right now, as if I am on the same journey as the characters of the story.

To........xxxxxx I have been thinking about what you did. I still think it was cold, calculated and really mean. And it does still hurt to feel so dismissed. My friend told me she thinks you did it out of fear...fear of me, fear of trying again, fear of my temperamental emotionality, but I decided to judge you by your actions, and all I see is a cold, selfish, calculated man. It annoys me that beneath my anger, my hurt, I am aware I still have feelings for you.....and then I feel annoyed at myself for feeling that. Feeling that way for a man who does not deserve for me to feel anything for him. You are a coward, but then so am I. It's sad you had to cause things to 'end' so badly. It didn't have to be this way. It could have had a happier, more friendly ending. If you ever come back into my life, you had better have a good reason for it. Any pointless, meaningless attempts at contact will be point-blank ignored. I am going to keep on striving to be compassionate and forgiving.