Check my story out, please. I need all the advice that I can get and probably more...
When I was 19, I planned a pregancy, and got pregnant, and my then-boyfriend (who became my husband) rejected the whole pregnancy, but I struggled to have the baby. That baby is now my 9 year old son with me, divorced. I never regreted it - because even though it was so terribly terribly hard at times that I want to give up... it was the right thing to do.
When I got divorced 5 years ago, I met my second chance in life... we had the perfect relationship, one that was so stable, and love was stable, and we never fought. He was a European and had his contract finished after 1 year that we dated, and he left. I waited for him for another 2 and a half years... I broke it off late last year because there was no way he could return to me (physically)
This year, I met a guy that I fell in love with. The relationship was not as stable as the earlier one, but guess what happened. After dating officially for 5 weeks, I got pregnant. And yes, due to miscalculation, I took the morning after pill, and yes, guess what, the pill didn't work. I am now 11 weeks pregnant.
Then, all that, the father of my baby refused to commit, nor let me go. He just stood in between. Eventually, he said that he had to let me go.
I cannot be a single parent again, and I can't go for an abortion. No one in the world knows except for one friend that lives far away. My parents does not know. I choose adoption. But, I don't know whether I can go through with it. I need all the strength in the world and more. I have to go away for the birth, and when I start showing soon, so no one would ever know.
What am I to do?
