I have been through this same thing with my boyfriend of a year and 7 months. He is 6 years older then me. He is experienced and been with many women. As for me I grew up with a personal religious choice to save myself for the one. I dated many many guys and never found that quality. I was never a jealous or insecure person. When I started dating my boyfriend I learned he had been with many women and the prior girl he dated for a month he slept with and I new her. I was jealous and angry. And the worst thing I did was I held it in. I was so so so pissed off that he slept around and he ended up with me....the virgin. A clean slate for him and no worries. So when I finally told him about it. He was angry. But over the past 7 months he has helped me so so much. Answer questions. Reassuring me. His honestly and his remorse and love has begun to heal me. Its a long process. I feel what you are feeling. My advice: Don't ignore it. Acknowledge it. Your pain. Your jealousy. Don't lie to yourself. That was my mistake. But you have to get over it if you want to be with her. And that is easier said then done. Forgive and forget. What helped me is realizing that we all struggle, in one way or another. Simply because we live in a broken world, full of sin. People live. She can't change what she did with those guys, just like my boyfriend can not change having slept with those girls. They lived. They may not have been the best choices. Just live in the present. Because that's the cost of the past. Its non-refundable. It sucks. But its life. Just love her. Make her feel desired and appreciated and she will never stray.
much love---ST
