CocoButter

Day 4 Every day you become a stranger and how I loved you so...I am on day 4 but it feels longer bc ive gone weeks and then make contact or he makes contact so now its a fresh start...since the first attempt at no contact in december..when he sent me marry xmas text and then happy near year text...of course i responded to both... Everyone please listen to this song on youtube: Its by the Script and called break even...I swear...when you are going through a breakup...you will totally relate...all the words..."Im still alive but im barely breathing...just praying to a god that i dont believe in bc ive got time and she's got freedom...bc a heart break it dont break even" in my case it would be him...but u get the picture...listen to the song...its good. I am finding it easier to not talk to him....he has said a lot of cruel thigns...well not cruel...but cold...when u dont expect it from the person...it just hurts bc he used to be so sweet to me. Oh how I wish I cut off contact a long time ago...please everyone learn from my mistakes....time heals all...when u allow it and u just need to cut contact...no matter how hard it is. This time I am ready....I am not going to talk to him again...if he contacts me again...I will ignore...and I KNOW he will contact me again...it will take time....but the thing I know is...he expects us to talk again...bc I was always there....He thinks I will just talk to him again...and when he does not hear from me...I know he will wonder and then contact me......this is my chance to move on and I am ready...finally...once and for alll...its over

Day 3 I am still waiting for things to get easier...i guess it would have been easier now if I stopped talking to my ex a long time ago. Learn from my mistakes everyone....cut them off or you will still be suffering almost 2 years later! I regret always the way I handled the breakup. I made it so easy for my ex...he NEVER had the chance to miss me. The day we broke up he contacted me and kept contacting me after wanting to be friends by text, email, msn and phone! We were in a long distance relationship...if we were in the same country he would have wanted to see me as well...in fact whenever I traveled to where he was (my sister lives there and I used to live there 5 years until i had to leave bc i could not work there). Anyways we would always see eachther. I helped him move on by ALWAYS being there like such a fool. I never once ignored him bc I am too nice. Any crumb of contact he gave me I jumped and was so nice to him...when what I really should have done was ignore him. Now I am the one to suffer and he is someone I dont even like anymore. I miss what he used to be, how we used to be. Now he is someone I would never look at....I guess I am just hurt from the pain he caused me and the death of "us" and the old him...now its like he is some cold big headed jerk.

Day 1 I accept the challenge! I already know what it feel like to break NC...u end up feeling like * * * * . Even when its the dumper initiating contact...I feel like * * * * after when I respond. I realize there is no point in being in contact. He has changed. He is not the guy I remember. He is not the guy I fell for. I have so many bad memories of him now after we broke up. I can not even remember the good times anymore! I dont even know why I still feel hurt. I cant remember the good in him anymore. I guess I am going through the hate stage? We have been broken up almost 2 years. I know I know...bad for still being hurt over someone. However, I did not cut contact off...mainly bc he kept contacting me at first all the time and it was like we were still together and it took about 1.5 years for him to finally back off...so its almost like im hurting and its starting all over as a break up bc finally he has stopped contacting me etc. Anyways this is a lesson for everyone who r freshly broken up. CUT OFF contact. Or u will be like me 2 years later...still hurting. Its the thing I regret the most. I wish I cut contact right away. At least then we would both be hurting...instead of now its only me. When u stay in contact with the Ex...you only ease their pain....make it EASIER for them to get over u. U r holding their hand through the break up...while we are in pain and hurting. If we cut them off...they feel a bit of pain...you dont want to make things easier for someone who broke ur heart and walk through hell? CUT THEM OFF!!!!!!!!!!