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A girl, who I really fell in love with, just left me. She knew I had strong feelings for her. I sensed she did not feel the same way I did, though. The last time we went out, I asked her to call me up before she moved out. She said she would but my phone never rang. During months I expected her to call me up, she even waved to me when we bumped into. (Both had to run and did not have time to say anything, though.) You might say, I should have called her up but I believed in and bet on to the last minute that she would give me a call even though she might break me up. The very next day she left, I was just so crushed that I felt even suicidal. I still like her a lot and just want to reach her. So, I e-mailed her twice ( I don't have her new number.) However, she has not responded to me yet. Before I asked her out, we were good friends. I don't think she is a kind of person who does not take my feelings seriously. And then, why she or people ignore others' serious feelings? More importantly, How can I forget her and move on? I still like her a lot and she will linger in my mind until she completely rejects me. I will continue to wish she woud call me up someday. That kills me. I can swallow rejection but ignorance hurts me a lot. If anyone have a thought on my situation, please drop me a line.

Hi, I am trying to bounce back from rejection from a girl, who I really fell in love with. Since the next day she left, I have tried to forget her. However, a little thing reminds me of her and puts me in a dark, deep pit. Just a little thing distresses and kills me. I mean, I can go to the place where she and I had a good time. Of course, that place lets me feel so down that I would be almost crying. But I can face with it and deal with it. I can also see her pictures. On the other hand, a little ordinary thing, which I am not aware of an association with her, completely destroys me. For example, when I saw a CD case in my car, which I think she grabbed once, it brought her to me so badly. That day, I could not drive and cried and drunk a lot. Although I do not even remember clearly whether she opened or not that CD case, the memory that she sure touched it flashed me out and crushed me out. The list of such a small thing will go on. I would like to believe that time will heal me but I doubt it because such small things seem to me countless. I am not sure whether you understand what I am saying. But if anyone has any thought, please drop me a line. [/code]

I think we are control-freaked and visually influential. I would say, first you might as well act as if you were being gradually controlled by your guy's moves. Secondly, you might as well be always aware of your guy's eyes and react on a little bit larger scale. Of course, put your guy's favorites always helps

I am going through a painful rejection from a girl, who I really fell love in with. Some of words in this web site inspired me to write about my situation. Please drop me a line if someone has a thought on it. The very next day you left Blue sky kills me Fresh air feels cold Green trees falls on me I' m driving the way We used to together A song touched my heart I'm listening over again "Could you tell me one thing you remember me? Just one thing I remember me and all the little things that make up a memory all the little things" ( Counting Crows " Have you seen me lately (live acoustic)? " I try to catch your look I liked your sweet smile I liked your cute lips I liked the way you called me But it could all end now It could be all over You just left me You didn't leave anything for me I knew you would be gone But I wished something magical But I wished something real while me and you were here Where are you right now? Who are you thinking of? I gave you my heart, But you threw it away....... I wonder if I will love someone Like I have never been hurt before I wonder if someone will love you Like I have ever done to you The very next day you left Blue sky kills me I am listing the same song I wish I would be fading away

Annonomous, Smokeycat and emptysoul. I really appreciate your responses and I started to feel a little better. Still, I cannot stop thinking about her and feel down so badly, though. Actually, I just e-mailed her (I don't know her new number.) to contact me but I am not sure whether she will. More likely, she will not. Should I keep trying to reach her or not? If I reach her, I will straight her up to ask how she really feels about me. Even though she rejects me, should I keep in touch with her as a just friend? More likely, she will reject me but she will not mind keeping in touch with me? Again, I still like her a lot, yeah, I know she is rude, though

Hi, this is my first time to post my pain on a web site. I just need someone to share with it. I have been trapped by heavy depression that even solicits me to kill myself these days. It started when a girl, who I really fell in love with, left a town four days ago. Since last year when I first saw her and had enjoyable conversations with her in a coffee shop, she really got me. I asked her out several times but she did not agree, saying she would like but she was too busy. I could swallow it and tried to keep a distance from her. Then she approached me instead of. We made several appointments to have coffee or to study together. However, she did not call me back and those appointments did not realize. I did not upset because I think I really liked her. I believed that she also found some connection with me and I just wanted the right timing to come. Strangely, I had kind of fun by fantasizing about being with her someday. That was why I did not ask her whether she had a boy friend. I think she did one, who was out of a town, though. As such, we were still cool. When we ran into on a street or in a class, we had a very short but fun time to chitchat. Even she then showed her some sweetness to me. And then, I asked her to go out again. She replied me that when she had a time, she would call me. I waited one month but my phone never rang. It was very disappointing and then I decided to avoid her. I still really liked her, though. Three months after, we bumped into and a couple days later finally went out together. I had a great time and I thought she did, too. My passiveness might be wrong but I did not want her to go out with me again if she felt uncomfortable. So, I just asked her to call me up when she wanted to see me, saying I would not call her up. She said to me she would. I waited and waited. Again, waiting was kind of fun to me, allowing me to fantasize about her. I knew she would move out in two months. So, I expected her to call me up at least one time before she took off. But she did not. The next day she left a town a huge pain crushed me. Still, I just cry, drink and throw up again and again. I feel empty, dark and depressed because every little thing reminds me of her. You might say that I should have called her up but I believed in her to the last minutes that she would give me a call. You might also say that I am a kind of creepy that cannot stop thinking of a just girl, not even a girl friend. Furthermore, you might say that she was mean to me. However even I don't know why I suffer from so serious pain that solicits suicide. Maybe, I am a recent graduate and my job will start one month later. So, I have too much time to think. Maybe, I do not have either many friends or trustful ones to share with this. Maybe, I have a regret that I did the similar thing to a girl, who really liked to me. Maybe, I am so vulnerable that I committed suicide before. It sounds cheap, she was the best girl I have ever met. I still like her. I really do If anyone have any thought on my situation, please drop me a line.