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THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
I have lost count!!! YAY, it so much easier to maintain NC when you move 1300 miles away!! lol yeah so things are better for me... meeting new people, and I don't think about my ex fiance as much anymore! Anyways thats all for now! Stay Strong fellow NC'ers. Today is a new day! ^_^ -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
Day 7... boy is this getting interesting... things were going good, I was helping the neighbor move her things into her uhaul and well then I left to go to my church activity that we have every monday night, and well when i get back i chat with one of my friends online and then get on myspace and see she is online.... boy I felt so weird... i felt like that was the only thing we had in common anymore and it was all coincidence... we just happen to be online at the same time... my heart was pounding I could feel it through my chest... My mind was racing thinking about all the memories I have with her... then it all stopped, she got offline, and things cooled down... i decided I would post to my blog and well things cooled off... it was just weird... any comments??? -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
Day 6... slow and moving slower... time decides to take forever today... she keeps poping in my head... i wish it would all go away... I wish my love for her would just disappear just to make it all easier instead of painful torment... but slow and slow none the less... i wait for the next day... -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
Day 5... things a getting a little easier... still sucks don't get me wrong but im learning to deal with things a little better... still worried about my move coming up, and still content with the way things are... good luck all you fellow NC'ers!!! John -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
beginning of day 5.... boy does it suck... i had my first dream about her since the break up... and normally i don't remember any of my dreams... i keep thinking about her... and i try to think about something else but she finds her way back in my mind... its so difficult, i keep thinking why were we together if all this was going to happen??? I keep praying everyday and asking God for strength to get through the day, and asking God to help her... but it doesn't feel like its working... i'm growing tired of still feeling pain for her, while she is still so cold and callous, and hurtful...sometimes i find myself thinking "did she ever really love me??" and I know thats a stupid thing to ask, because I know that she loved me... I just want answers as to why this is happening... on top of all of this I have to move out of my friends place by next thursday, and I don't have the money to get home, I keep trying to get the money that this business owes me and thats not working... I just keep experiencing the worst right now... Its hard for me to see the light at the end of the tunnel... -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
Day 4... boy today was difficult... kinda sucks, cuz last night i find out from my friend that she is getting a restraining order and I have even been in contact with her for a week... i'm so confused to what is going on... it is killing me... i havn't even done anything to her... also she is asking her boy toy for permission before she does anything like she can't think for herself anymore... how can she just do all this... i was the person that was always there for her, and loved her, and made her smile... now all this?? I'm sooo hurt and confused right now... I need help... -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
moving on... its a beautiful feeling... going day 3... it still sucks don't get me wrong but my bouts of uncontrollable emotions have dissipated for now at least and its a good feeling... i cried a little yesterday, but today I just had to deal with some stuff before I move... I'm hoping that it just gets better from this point forward... I have learned to accept that we are done, and that she doesn't want me in her life anymore... as much as it sucks its the truth at least from what I gather... and now I have to worry about me... wish you guys all the best. -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
well its day 2 now... i would of been 3 but i slipped up the other day and texted her... anyways today wasn't that bad, i mean it still 7:00 pm but I have hope that its still going to be a good day... i did think about her but I didn't feel the pain like a did before, I guess I took control and realized if she can hurt as much as she is after the break up, theres no reason for me to miss someone like that, sometimes that kinda thinking works than others i still miss her... i mean I still really do miss her and love her and wish we could fix everything... anyways a close friend of mine is suppose to just hang out with her, and try to talk to her, not my idea, hes moving to and he just want to say goodbye and stuff but he also cares about her and the things she is doing to herself... i miss her a lot, and I can't understand why she is hurting herself like she is, but she ultimately makes that choice. Feeling a little better... -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
It was going to be day 2... but i slipped, I texted her, asked her if she would go to lunch with me... my treat... but nothing no response... i can't stop thinking about her... even after she has done some horrible things to me after the break up, and i mean horrible, i can't stop loving her... this is so hard... -
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE - SuperDave71
...John... replied to SuperDave71's topic in Getting Back Together
Ok I'm In!!! I need to find healing for myself, and I strongly believe that NC is the way to do it... I this point I don't care about reconciliation that doesn't matter to me anymore. However, I would be lying if I said I didn't care about her... but a big part of me believe that NC will help the healing process and allow me to move on a little, and if by any means she starts to miss me and realize maybe we were good together, I don't plan on getting back with her unless she changes herself, because looking back on everything I wasn't the one who was always at fault, I did do some very bad things to hurt her, but I know It was not all me. so it is 11:26 on the 5th of July, 2008 and It is Day 1...