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  1. so i got this weird text today, well first it was a phone call. i didn't know the number so i didnt answer it. so then they proceeded to ask what i was doing tonight, i didt say what i was doing but asked who they were. turns it it is my ex's best friend. why would he text me? i didnt even talk to him unless i was with my ex. strange... so i asked if my ex asked him to text me.. no reply back............suspicious. if my ex wanted totalk to me wouldnt he just text me himself or probably didnt have the balls to. i'm not eve going to bother with it
  2. i'm also confused about tonight, if i should go out or not because if i do i know we will be at the same place (bar) and i dont know if i really want to see him or not. it might just bring up all the hurt again. yet i can't avoid him forever..... i don't know what to do. i would probably freak if i saw him with another girl so early on. i really don't know... i know he wont' talk to me anyways if i do go there and im not gonna try to talk to him either. but i do want to go out and have fun with friends. arrrgggg.. why can't he just disappear
  3. titch_p, no i didnt receive any text from him at all. nothing. kinda makes me feel like he really did not care in the first place. like it was so easy for him to just break up and it's so easy for him to not call or make any sort of contact. like he is so much better off without me... i dunno, just wish he would give some sort of sign that he missed me, even a little bit....
  4. i need to vent a bit. still NC going on(4 days), also it is his birthday today for those who don't know. i guess i'm kind of expecting him to give me a text, but yet not. i couldn't help myself but drive past the bar where i knew he'd be. just seeing his truck there hurt. knowing i would of been there beside him celebrating.... can't help but wonder who's all there and how he's doing. i guess i will never know. seems like he's doing fine without me, which probably hurts the most. wondering if i will see him out tomororw night and if i do, how i'm going to handle it. sometimes you can only try to remain strong for so long before you break down totally. i somehow feel guilty for all of this, just knowing i can't fix it and he can only fix himself and the way he's acting... but yet maybe i could of been a better girlfriend, maybe if i didnt argue back with him, maybe if i showed him more love. i did what i could and i guess it wasn't enough. just some quotes i found that i liked. related to me a lot.... “It's weird, yeah I miss you, but it's so much more then that. I miss the way my heart stopped at just the sight of you, and that smile. The sad part about it is your smile isn't the only one that I'm missing. I miss my own, the one that's only there when yours is.” -Hollie Seals “Maybe he's doing the same thing as me. Maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him. Then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.” -Hollie Seals
  5. thanks guys, i know it will be a tough time for me today because we made plans for this day a while back together and i can't help but know and think about what exactly hes going to be doing tonight and where exactly he will be, and knowing i won't be there with him celebrating. definatly a weak day for me but i will try and remain strong
  6. I dont expect any thing in return but i want him to miss me and by no contact he will but he told me he didnt want anything to do with me anymore but he said it when he was mad so i dont know what to think or do
  7. gosh it just seems so harmless though. i will have to restrain myself allllll day i think. he hasn't tried to contact me once since we broke up other then to get his things, which we exchanged on saturday so. arrrgg. i hope he has a lonely and sad birthday! haha.
  8. broke up 6 days ago..officially day 2 of NC.... because i sent him a merry x-mas text like i did all my other contacts so i dont know if that counts...if it doesn't then its day 4 of NC. um. ok i am SOOOOOOO tempted to sent him a happy b-day text because it's his birthday today. what should i do??!?!!? it seems so harmless but i don't know if it's a good idea. help!?
  9. i guess maybe i am still hoping he will call cuz then atleast it would mean that i actually did mean something to him.. i dno. i hate break ups
  10. hey guys im trying the NC thing too after my ex told me he didnt want nothing to do with me, so thats exactly what im doing! also on my phone i changed his name to "NC remember!" just to remind me if he ever texts me or if i feel like texting him, NOT TO!!! even though he hasn't yet but im sure the day will come, and i changed his ringer to this awesome ringtone i found so if he calls it plays 'do not answer this call, its someone you dont want to talk to so dont even look at your phone" i'm sure it will help me out when/if he does call.
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