hate myself and want to die...(nirvana rules ) i have no reason to live, my life sucks... i wish i would just die, i wanna go to sleep and never wake up. i hate waking up, i feel sick. i hate myself, i tried to kill myself a few times but i can't even do that right, i tired to get help once but it didn't work out. the sad part about everything is that when i tired to kill myself and failed i felt sad becuz i didn't die. i tell my mom all the time that i wanna die, but she just gets mad at me and walks away, my brother knows i wanna die too but he just jokes about it... i see nothing funny about it. im tired of asking for help no one cares so i should just end it, i have no reason to live. im not scared to die, i wanna die. i have always been sad even at a young age when i was younger like 7 i use to write suicide letters.... now im 16 going on 17 and i still wanna die... my brother bought a gun so im thinking about going over their and when he's not looking i can go get it and blow my head off, hopefully i will die... with my luck i'll prolly live . im just a waste anyway, i don't do anything, no one needs me, everyone will ge over it... besides i've told everyone i was gonna do it so their will be no surprises anyway if u ppl have any advice for me e-mail me or whatever, but hurry if your gonna do it cuz i don't plan to be around much longer bye now