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I was doing so well until now. I had went NC and LC with her and I was honesty not caring about what happened. I wanted to remain her friend (only because I've been with her so long that I still am excited to tell her stuff thats happening, just like all of my friends). However, she called me and we spoke about the papers yesterday. I went and signed them yesterday and I came to find out she went and signed them as soon as the lawyers office was open today. I know that I'm blowing that way out of proportion, but I guess the new guy she is seeing is making her rush things along. she has been txting me every day or two asking me about the papers, so I'm sure hes getting anxious. Anyway, I was fine today, then I had to call the lawyers office about soemthing and found out she signed the papers already this morning. I feel like crap now. Its really weird, its like I'm bipolar. Ill feel great one day, and then just want to cry all day the next. I cant really NC, because I have to get some more paperwork signed (car stuff & house stuff) and I have to be here when she comes and gets her stuff or drop it off there when shes there. I guess once everythings done ILl go NC. I really am tired of caring, she even sent me a letter apoligizing for what she did, but she still wants to get a divorce. I guess that is just to help her ease her guilt. I guess DAY 1 of NC Today. Again. This sucks.

Im in Day 3 of NC. Still want to call her or txt her, but I know its for the best if I don't. I've honesty gotten to the point that I just want her out of my life so that I can enjoy myself without being sad any time I'm at home by myself

Starting NC Tonight. Wife and I have been separated for four months, shes been cheating, still is apparently, decided she wants a divorce. She will come around for a while, then leave, and once I start feeling good about it, she comes around again. I think I need to start complete NC. Hopefully it will make me not miss her as much and have the random depression that I have been having (usually when I'm home bymyself). Spoke with her this evening, she called and wanted to know when I was going to file since she wants it done and shes too poor to do it. Figures huh? Wish me luck. Hopefully I can get through all day tomorrow without texting her or calling. A bit of a question though, she will eventually contact me with a text saying "How are you" or something to that effect because thats what she always does. What should I do? Ignore it, or just say "I'm fine, thanks" and then not answer any more?