I am 28 years old and currently in turmoil, I dont know which way to turn or what to do !
I have a beautifull daughter who is just 18months old and myself and her mother are now separated, her choice. We where so much in love when we first met, infact we where best friends, I guess why this is hurting so much right now. I would be foolish to say we never had our problems but I cant think of them now. All I can think of are the good times we had and how we are not going to spend our future together as a family. Basically I never trusted her and I had no reason to feel that way, so I pushed her and pushed her until she finally snapped, she now says she is not in love with me anymore, and all she wants is for tme to be a good father to our daughter, but I cant separate my feelings, I am still picking my daughter up to take her to nursery, so every morning I have to meet with my ex. So rather than when you normally break up and you may bump into them a few months down the line and you get that feeling. I have that feeling every single morning of my life. I see her and just want her to tell me she will give me another chance. She doesnt. I miss them both so much but even when I get to spend time alone with our daughter I still think about my ex partner. Mornings seem to be the worst, and all friends say is that you will get over it, I guess no one can tell me what I want to hear apart from my ex. I cant stop phoning her or texting her I try but I cant it just seems so easy to pick up the phone and speak to her. She has started to put the phone down, on me which does upsett me more but still I cant stop. I sit there alone in the house and pick up the phone. If I do go out to visit friends, the first thing I do is check my messages, theres normally no call from her. What can I do I just seem to be getting worse not better, people say time is the best healer but all it seems to do is be dragging her further away from me. Its bad but I needed this to happen to realise just how much she meant to me, I have just realised too late, If I could build a time machine I could change what happened but until then I just seem to be going round in circles
