i don't want my mate to have other mates, but i don't tell him that. i just keep it to myself. and everytime he talks about these other people, i just appear cool and act like everything's fine as. but deep inside, i fear that my mate would leave one day. i mean, ive had heaps of mates before. i always try to be good, help them in every way i can, say with homeworks and other school stuff, i try to learn what their interests/hobbies are, but all of them just left, we lost contact. i tried emailing them, but they didnt respond. i felt betrayed.
just last year, i found a new mate. so i did the same thing. i tried to help this mate with school stuff. i never had interest in rugby, but i tried learning it because he was keen on that. i tried to be there if he needed my help with other things (like when he and his gf fought). but then when the holidays came, i never heard from him again. i tried to call him, but he doesnt answer.
i treasure all me mates. i don't feel like i deserve to be treated like how my former mates treated me because i know i tried to be solid for them. i don't know if i'm being naive or what. all i know is that it sucked big time.
now i have a new mate, again. i just feel worried that this person will leave just like what others did. i don't want to be possessive, but at the same time, i don't want people to treat me like rubbish.
what do i do now? how do i act towards my mate?