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  1. Backinlife...Great Post.. I wish I had good times like that lol.
  2. Yeah your probably right, and maybe I'm acting a little silly thinking that he'll understand at his age.. I always thought he was really mature for his age..lol alot more mature than some of my friends at school, but no matter how mature he may seem he's still 12 and the things you mentioned are all in place. Maybe I should just give it time. I'm 16, and it makes it a hard situation, It may even seem weird that I'm good friends with Jordan even with our age difference.. If it does, I dont know what to tell you..It just worked out this way because of the situation. I just think the age difference will mean alot less when we both get older.
  3. This is and Update from this orginal post: In Personal Growth, titled "Wow" (sorry I guess I can't post URLs). It will be alot easier If you want to help go there first. Edit: thanks for the Link ilse. Again, I'm really worried about my friendship with Jordan and I don't think it will last as long as I wanted it to. We have been living together for over a year now in our new house and we have gotten along great. I told him how I felt about going to college and how I was afraid...afraid that we might grow apart. And to my surprise he simply said "We probably will." It hit me like a brick wall. I had no clue what to say, I wasn't expecting to get an anwser like that. I was expecting him to be like "nah, we'll be friends one way or another." This made me feel depressed again, thinking that our friendship isn't as strong as I thought.. Do you think he said "We Probably will" because he really doesn't care? It was a really sad thing to hear from him. I always thought that if you were truly good friends with someone you would find some way to stay friends no matter what, well I dont think he'll try and it makes me feel really bad, Like I'm someone he doesn't give a crap about, yet I care about him so much and try to be the best friend I can. It's seems as if he wants nothing to do with me anymore, we still do stuff together and have fun, but it seems like if I didnt put forth the effort to start to do something with him or ask if he wants to do something, he wouldn't bother. Is this just a rough time or something? Maybe we have seen to much of eachother? Please someone help me feel better about this. Are we really best of buds or have I just grown to think that? I dont know..I'm confused. This may seem silly to some..but I need help somehow because I feel depressed.
  4. In 5 years I'd like to be Happy...I dont care how or where..just happy
  5. Mike88

    Wow!

    Update: See Friendship Section- Titled : "I think I going Crazy..Please Help"
  6. thanks for the replies people, but I dont really know why i wrote this in the first place..LOL..I was kind of down..and just thinking about it..But I know the anwser already and your all right, in some ways. Thanks again..sorry. Edit: Melrich your awesome..you seem to be watching over me whatever I post..Thanks for caring. Your replies really seme to help.
  7. How can I create more fun times with my step brother.. Most of the time these just come naturally when were doing something fun together, but the bad thing is...is that there always has to be something to bring us together..like videos games or going somewhere, playing football outside ect. Theres many times at home when i'm just sitting there with him watch football or something..and we dont do anything..but just watch tv. It's hard to explain. When this happens..it's very boring. I try to ask him if he wants to do something else..but he just simple shrugs and says..like what? The truth is that I dont really know what..It's just that I know from past experiences that the funniest times we've have is when we make up our own game or something. Another thing is that I'm growing a little annoyed... Sometimes I feel that he lacks interest of doing anything fun with me at all. Is it because were with eachother so much that were getting sick of eachother?
  8. Are you watching the LSU vs ARK game?..it's intense. I play high school football...Im a tight end. I use ramstein to get myself jacked. I didnt know that song was about nuclear war...I just love sound of it. I like songs that give you a sense of time going by or people moving on, thats what i think of. Like the beginning of it, it sounds sort of sad, but it makes it more meaningful i guess.
  9. I found music to be my very best friend lately..Some songs really hit me hard when im listening to them on my ipod while doing something. music really brings out the best in me and they've helped me overcome narrowminded thinking and just look around and smell the fresh air. It's like background music to your life. Im wondering if their other people that feel the same about music and it makes you feel happy or more aware of feelings or views that you've had inside. I just found this song and i really love it...it does exactly what ive mentioned above. Its Nena - 99 Red Luft Balloon. Its just makes good times better and really hits you hard. I have both the English verison and German..I dont know german but I feel that I like it better, just sounds awesome, even though I dont understand its such a beauitful langauge. Another great song is I still haven't found what Im looking for by U2 I want to hear other songs that people like that do the same thing. Please share some. Im sure everyone has at least one.
  10. The worlds not nearly perfect..no one understands life or why were here.. the worlds confused..and there's no one who clearly understands it. Some people are living lies, others are living like they understand, its a joke. Live it as it comes and try to enjoy it..but i wouldnt worry so much were all just a drop of existence. Best way im going to spend my life is by traveling and meeting new people trying to understand them..and opening myself to whatever comes my way. Everything that we know is so complicated and most of the world is sucked in and have became narrow minded, but what can you do. You think someones better than you? Their probaby as clueless as everyone else.
  11. I'm a person that likes to solve the problem right away. If I have a person I dont get along with..I'll try to peacefully and respectfully talk to him about it and find what the deal is. Sometimes just saying sorry to someone really helps even though you sometimes dont think it's your fault. There was once this person I went to school with that I didnt get along with at all I thought we must have hated eachother alot... Well one day I just went up to him and said..Man, whats up, come on we dont have to fight like this. Im sorry for being an * * * * * * * to you.. And to my surprize he totally agreed and said the same thing back to me and we became ok friends... Weird huh?
  12. Mike88

    Wow!

    Thanks a ton for deciding to post.. Your reply really hit the core of the problem, my step-brother, and I really feel satisfied about going to college now and im not worried anymore because of the great replies I've gotten from you all, finding this site and doing this really helped me. There's a great crew here on enotalone, for sure. The real story behide this is that when I was younger about Jordans age my two very best friends were my cousins, Jay and another Mike..we did EVERYTHING together and we would see eachother all the time because of family get togethers and stuff. We were all the same age, me and mike went to the same school together, went on family vacations together a few times, went skiing all the time in the winter, beaches and picnics... I could go on and on, I thought for sure nothing would bring us apart and we would be doing stuff together when we're older and so on..but I was wrong. His family and my family were always thinking up a plan to do something, and when our parents weren't.. we would. Well when we went to different high schools everything started depleting, the only way we would talk to eachother is over xbox live which came to be a pretty useful tool, jay also got an account. But it still happened, now mike and I never talk or doing anything.. And I havent seen or heard from him in about 2 years. Jay and his family ended up moving to AZ, xbox live kept us in touch for a while and then it faded. (I just started talking to him again and he said he never whats to lose touch again, he said he was going to start playing video games again on xbox live). Mike still plays on xbox live but i haven't been on there much since I moved, because theres been so much to do and things that were more important to me then to be on live playing games 24/7 like I use to. I think im going to try to get the xbox 360 and start playing again for old time sake. Well I'll never forget the fun times the three of us had together and im positive they wont either, But you could say those days or over, which is a sad thing. Im afraid the same thing will happen to me and Jordan. I'll be going to college and almost never be around home and he'll be going to high school and having alot of fun...and we'll just grow apart, feels like it's fate. I really hope this doesnt happen and I'll do whatever I can to stop.
  13. Mike88

    Wow!

    Again thanks..You all have made me feel alot better about this. I feel that Ill have alot of opportunities to spend more good times with family. I'll have alot more freedom to do more stuff and i'll be busy. I plan on going to school for architecture, Im usaully really good at talking to people and making a good impression. Alot of my teachers at school think im a great student, because I talk seriously about stuff and they see me as someone that will make it and be successful, because I have the right attitude about things for my age. An architect came to our school recently and gave a presentation about how it is to be one and everything.. well after I talk to him about it and he told me he was really impressed on how professional I seemed, approaching him and talking about ideas I had and my general understand of the profession, he liked my attitude and how I thought. I Believe the social aspect of any career you decide to go into is a huge deal. Knowing the right people and having a good reputation can bring you good oppertunies down the road. He gave me his business card and said if I ever wanted to do an internship at his company he would help get me in, and he was telling me how most of the people that do the internship end up working there after college. He's the leader of probaby the biggest architect company around here! He told me to call the number on his biz card if I had any questions. Im 16 and I already have an option of work if I play my cards right and it all because I took the effort to just talk to him personally after the presentation.
  14. Mike88

    Wow!

    WOW! (for real this time lol) I'm so happy to hear all this from you guys..you've really put a simle on my face..This is a great website and a great community. Thanks Yeah I really love how things are going right now.. The man my moms dating..his name's Doug. His parents own a island up in the 1000 islands and we have a house up there and everything..And omg, it just adds to the whole ordeal. We have so much fun up there in the summer, all the water sports, jet skis, wake boarding, its awesome, and with winter coming I really miss it. When we get up there..the area is just so beatiful, everyone just breaks down and enjoys it, no worries..nothing. No thoughts of the outside world lol. Well anyway I could talk forever about it. I think its a great place and I look forward spending time up there on summer breaks from college, another idea that just came to mind. Another way to be with the family. I did try to tell jordan...but at his age it seems to go in one ear and out the other, but he has alot of trust in me and it shows that he understands (at least I think). I forgot to say this..the topic was bought up by one of the kids when we were watching a movie, on who will get my bedroom when I leave (since I have the biggest one). Well, my mood kind of got shot down when that happened, felt like I was dying hearing them talk about it right in front of me, I didn't show any signs of it to them..I kind of went long with what they were saying.
  15. Mike88

    Wow!

    I Just spent hours writing a topic that i really thought was going to work to fix my problem, it was a very long story. And I went to preview post and It asked me for my username and password..so i typed it in and it brought me back to this writing tool..and it was blank! There's no way i can write it all over again! Im going to go kill myself now...bye. (Just joking) Ok well this is going to be the shorten verison of my story. Im embarrassed saying these things, they're very personal feelings, but I think this is the only way I can talk to someone about it. Before I start on what my problem is I'll start with some background. Ive lived with my Mom and my sister which is 4 years younger then me for most of my life, my father has some issues that I dont really want to talk about. Well my mom and dad have been broken up for a while and my mom started dating again. She Met this guy about the same age has her about 2 years ago, This guy is cool, he's really friendly and he didnt try to act like a father torwards me but more of a friend, which I like. Well shortly after meeting him for the frist time (they already had been dating for a while), I found out that he was married once too and he has 2 kids of his own, Jordan (12 y/o) and Carly (9 y/o). The first time he brought them over me and my sister got along soo prefectly with them, like we've known eachother for years. Jordan's awesome, He likes everything that I like and we both love sports and were both very competitive. We started spending alot of time together doing stuff as a family going places and everything. you might think that I wouldnt want to spend time with my family being 16 and all, but this has open up everything to me and now things are alot more fun. After a while we decided to Merge the two families and move into a huge new house together, This was a very exciting time for us all we had a new family living together now and there was always something going on...the best thing of all was that we all got along prefectly. Jordan has turned into the little brother I've always wanted. After getting to know jordan more he's a pretty cool kid, hes not annoying or spoiled like most kids his age are, hes probably the coolest 12 y/o I know (he could surely pass for 14 at least, If you were to talk to him over the phone or something). He acts more mature then some of my friends at school, but knows how to have alot fun. I think he really looks up to me and im really proud to be an influence on him. I really treat him like a brother and I care alot about him. Well the Problem Is, Im a Junior! I'll be going off to college soon and moving away from home and out of the house. It's really nerve racking. Im afraid that when I go to college Ill be stuck in time and my family will move on without me. Or when I do leave college everything and everyone will be changed differently then what I remember. (espacially Jordan, He'll be going to highschool and becoming a teenager, He'll probably change alot, will he not think I'm cool anymore? Will we grow apart? I dont know). These things are really embarrassing for me to say, but its how i feel. I feel like once i go to college thats it...I wont have time to visit or spend time with family like I do now. I appreciate all the people that took the time to read this. Thank You. I'll reply tomorrow,, cause I dont have any time right now.
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