Hi everyone. I am new and in some major pain over a relationship I have. It is long distance and has been for almost three years. This man and I live about a hundred miles away. At first I drove to visit him anytime I could. We eventually found ourselves in a relationship. Shortly after that determination he started making comments about not feeling like he was in a relationship because he never saw me. I don't know how to explain our entire relationship but the point is I fell in love with him and always felt that he was bound to leave me...all the signs were there. In fact we broke up and got back together several times. Each break up lasts about a week. It's a week of hell for me. I really fell for him and each break up has been so traumatic for me. Anyhow, once when we broke up I slept with someone else. I wanted to get back together with my boyfriend who dumped me (for sending him an email telling him how special he was and that I wanted a future with him). I feel that what I did was so wrong. I know technically I can't say that it was cheating because I was dumped at the time but still I feel so guilty. Another point in our relationship I was intimate with someone else. We weren't broken up at the time. I don't know why I did it, and I feel so guilty. That was almost two years ago. I just know that there is so much stuff that is wrong with our relationship that I feel like I ruined our chances of having something special. I want him, in my heart I have always known I wanted to marry him but there was always something to making me feel that the rug could be pulled out from under me. Can we work? Two weeks ago he broke up with me again because the distance was just too much. I was asking for him to drive to visit me more often and he just doesn't like my town and my roommate so he refused. Anyhow, I felt unimportant to him. I couldn't understand why if he loved me he wouldn't want to drive to see me. Anyhow, he sewpt me off my feet for my birthday and told me he loved me a lot and that he wants things to work. Should I trust that? Should tell him about my guilt? Can things work after being this confusing? There is something pure about our feelings...but it just always seems there is something that ruins it for us. One is the distance...any thoughts?