Top of the morning to all!
I'm definitly not happy in my relationship it's over but i'm still living with this guy i'm working on finding my own place, anyway there is a four year old involved so it doesn't make matters easy for me. Although i do not love his father and there are no deep feelings for him anymore. We have grown apart and i must confess i'm in love with another man he is a friend of ours but not close friends i guess you could say we are aquaintances. I know we both feel this incredible attraction and i also know that the grass is not always greener on the other side. I've not seen this man for aleast a year and when i returned to see him, as aquaintances i realized my feelings are alot deeper for him and i'm trying really hard to hide this from my live in friend that still loves me. He has asked me to marry him three times now it's becoming everyday almost. I feel so much pressure because i don't ever intend to marry him at all, and i've told him this time and time again. But he doesn't seem to get it through his thick skull. I know he loves me and this is why he refuses to see that it will never be because he wishes it to be. This is really driving me crazy, i feel part of me has died inside my soul has been ripped out of me. All i want more than anything is to be with this man that i love so deeply within my heart , soul and mind. I have told him how i felt in so many ways never verbally because i feel it's wrong when i'm still living with someone. Please help me to understand what is going on here and how i should go about this. I realize i will only live once so why settle for someone that i'm not in love with to only make matters worse. I'd appreciate any responces thanks for caring! gloryoflove