Hey there!
I'm going to say what I think when I read your posts. I didnt want to say it in the other post of yours in case I was wrong. So if I am just ignore it ok?
Well it sounds to me like you have incredibly low self esteem. And you're also very anxious. As far as I know, people only have low self esteem when something bad has happened to them, or someone has made them feel worthless, or may have even said you are worthless. Also people are usually anxious/on guard because at one point in their life there was reason to be & they've just carried on doing it.
Has anything like that happened in your life that you can think of?
How bad is the verbal abuse that you talk about from your family?
If you are insecure, hyper sensitive etc its because something has made you become this way.
Anyways i'll be quiet now. Again sorry if this is wrong