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  1. MythicDawn--I agree with everything that you said except the above. You can still go to university with a child it may just take a little longer to complete. But this is where your b/f and family will come in. You are going to need a lot of support. Just know with abortion, you may think your prepared but you don't know until it is too late. I had a friend that asked my opinion, I told her I could never do it and I couldn't make the decision for her. She had it and regretted it everyday. Talk with the people that love you.
  2. This is the first time that I have ever posted to a site but I need to talk to someone before I burst. My life for the past 3 years has been one long battle. This may get a bit long because 3 years is a long time to keep things in. It may actually have been longer. My major problem is that somewhere along the way I have become indifferent to my husband. When we first met 18 years ago, our sex lives were great, we had a lot of the same interests, and enjoyed doing things with each other. The problem is when you have children, jobs, friends, and family that want your attention, too. I think the majority of our problems started when we moved. My husband tends to always look back. He is a bit of a pessimist. He took a pay cut so I started working and it has always bothered him that he feels he cannot provide for our family. I went back to school to become a nurse and ended up spending long hours studying at night, trying to take care of our children during the day, attending class, trying to keep working, and having some kind of life. On more than one occasion he asked me if I was having an affair. Eventually we both screwed up. Trying to revive our marriage I had sex with a man while he watched. And he slept with one of my friends because I had no time for him. We attended counseling but neither one of us liked the counselor and he was very expensive. We have started going to a new church and both of us have been working on our relationship with God. The problem is my husband thinks everything can be fixed overnight and things can be the way they used to be. But it seems like life just keeps getting involved to test us. Everytime I think we will have time to work on things something happens. We both work long hours and shift work. I finished school and problems started with our children in school, so we decided to homeschool. I started figuring that out and my mother was diagnosed with a brain tumor. She lives 10 hours away and I try to visit her once a month. After reading many of the other stories out there, I don't feel so alone anymore. I can relate to many of them. My husband brings up our sexual relationship with friends and complains to them how bad it is. He even confessed to one of our friends that he takes Viagra. It probably is no big deal but to me it was a violation of our intimacy, which I had just asked him to consider before he blurted things out. He makes me feel guilty for spending time with my mother. He loves her too and he realizes what he has done afterwards but it still hurts. The biggest thing is lately he has started blogging. He didn't tell me about it but our children told me that he is talking to people all over the world. When I asked him all he said was "So." My children also told me he has people calling him. He tells our children not to give out personal information but he does. This probably wouldn't be a problem but after he had an affair there is an issue of trust and one of the people that he talks to the most is a woman. I came home from work the other night, he was talking to her online, and got off the computer as soon as I came home. He told me he talks to her about our problems and she tells him hers. I know I am sounding hypocritical right now but I don't expect to talk to any of you anywhere but here and you don't live in the town I work in. If we were home together at night we always went to bed together even though we are having problems. Now he stays up on the computer half of the night and sleeps during the day when he could spend time with me. I guess I just want to know if anyone has any suggestions to help me.
  3. I think we both thought it might fix whatever was happening in our relationship. It only made things worse.
  4. Human, I have had these very same thoughts, only mine has gone beyond what your situation is and I struggle everyday on how I can fix my life. Believe me, an affair is not the answer. It will only make things much worse. I will tell you my story. My husband and I had little time to see each other already and I was feeling as you described in the beginning of your story. My husband had asked me on occasion if I was having an affair because of my disinterest. I was not but like you I didn't know how to fix it. I went back to school 3 years ago to become a nurse. I got into a nursing program through a local hospital where everything was paid for. The only hitch was that I would have to take classes for 2 straight years including summers with around 18 credits a semester. I had been married for 12 years at this time with 2 children 8 and 11. My husband and I discussed this and we both knew it would be tough. My husband works in a vegetable packing plant, so during the pack we do not see him very much. The pack can last from May to December. I was going to try to stay working nights as an assistant manager of a local hotel. We had some very close friends that we did everything with. One of the men had a birthday around the same time as mine. On our birthdays we would always do something special. We decided to go out of town for our birthdays, get hotel rooms, and go out for an evening without kids. I am not proud of what happened but during our evening one of the men starting coming on to me. Before the night was over I actually had sex with this man while my husband watched. I felt so dirty, I couldn't wash the feeling away. When I was taking classes, one of our acquaintances would watch my children. I thought she was like a sister to me. I was doing homework all night so I could be with my children during the day, working, and trying to figure out how to fix my life. I spent a lot of time with friends so I wouldn't have to think about how to fix my marriage or even if it could be fixed. My husband and I fought a lot because of my disinterest. I thought I was hiding it but it was obvious from the lack of sex in our marriage. He decided to turn to my friend who had just gone through a divorce. I had a gut feeling but then I thought I was wrong, it only happened once. Then he told me about it because he felt that I had given him permission when I slept with the other man and he thought we could both have an affair with this woman. I know before that, I had told him that I didn't ever want something like that to ever happen again and that it made me feel dirty. We started to attend counseling but the counselor that we saw was difficult to open up to and expensive. We have found a church that we attend regularly and are both trying to change our lives but the hurt that we have both inflicted is difficult to deal with. And the original problem is still there. So if you find a solution to your problem, please let me know what you did.
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