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I am attending a new school this fall. I went to a community college for three years and I finally transfered. I was excited about going because I would meet new people, and have more fun. So I started on Monday... and I hate it. I feel depressed about it. I don't know anyone. I am stressed out because the financial aid office is a total nightmare.. (they KEEP messing up my aid and I can't even get my freaking id). I only know two people.. Thats because I knew them before I transfered. I don't live in the dorms because I wanted to go to school somewhere close to my house (plus there are other problems at home so I have to be home for those particular reasons) and it cost way too much. I guess thats why a lot of people are getting a head start and I am just behind? I tried talking to some people.. I got alittle conversation out of it but it wasn't like a real one. I just want to make some friends so life wouldn't feel so lonely. I hardly see my boyfriend anymore because I've been working so much (at a suck place which I am quitting soon and hopefully getting this other job) and he has his stuff like he works full time during the day and other stuff at night. Also I hardly see the friends I have now anymore.. everyone is busy or off to their college, or they have a full-time job working for a living, or are with their "boyfriends". I feel very very depressed. I thought the whole new school thing would get me out of this deep depression I've been in since the summer started. I can't seemed to find a way out of it. God, I feel * * * *ty for only being there for four days. I have a facebook and I only have one friend that attends the same school as me and everyone else are from other schools. For some reason that really upsets me. Help?

its stupid, I know, but I cry really easily, I am very emotional, but cry, bring up something that you know would bother him and he would give it. An example is "you ditched me for your friends and I had all these plans for us." Make him feel guilty for something he has done to you even if it bothered you or really didn't affect you at all. This is not a thing you do all the time lol, but sometimes its good to hear that they admit they are wrong.

Dude, I feel like that sometimes. I've been with my boyfriend for over three years! Ya, sometimes just agreeing will work out, but you can't do it all the time. Did you ever tell him that he is stubborn? A little secret that I do, and I know its bad, but I make my boyfriend feel guilty sometimes. Then they give in 95% of the time. Its bad, but sometimes you have to trick them. hehe

click her into the psychward? Sometimes they are willing to do it themselves.

Text messages are the easy way to break plans, but it is also rude. I would had at least called.

Get a restraining order, I am serious! She sounds like a psycho .

Well, I am big about my weight. I used to take laxatives all the time. I would feel dirty and disgusted with myself everytime I ran into the bathroom. You would do your business then weigh yourself and think, yes, 2 lbs, I can eat something. But a lot of people don't realize is that you gain it back. Then you figure well I can eat something then take 5 more pills and do your business again a few hours later. It's not healthy at all. And its a waste of money! I got really bad pains in my stomach for days even after I didn't take any pills. I would think to myself I can do this, I can stop. Then you look at yourself then you do it again. Its hard.. be by herself. Tell her to STOP! Its danagerous! you can die from doing this.

Ya, sex is great.. but make sure it isn't too rough.. then it's painful. As long as your guy doesn't care about alittle mess, your in =)

Hey, I am new to this whole board thing, so can everyone bear with me? Thank you. Anyway, I just had an emotional breakdown yesterday and I was considering ending my life. For months I've been waking up feeling miserable, not willing to do anything and crying my eyes out. Its been really bad because I've been fighting with family, friends, my boyfriend. I would come out of no where in violence rage when I feel bad about it after the fact, but I still do it. I really don't know what to do. Does anyone have any situations? Any tips? Because yesterday was really frightening, and I really don't want to go through another day of being close to a knife and actually going through with it. I feel that I am alone in the world and that people just use me when they want something done, sex, or want me to spend money on them, etc. I had a long talk with my boyfriend about this and I still don't feel happy about the whole situation. He mentioned that I should go on some type of meds, but I really don't want to do that... Ya, over half of America is on some type of anti depressant, but just the thought of it.. I don't know.. Anyone? help?