Hey, I am new to this whole board thing, so can everyone bear with me? Thank you. Anyway, I just had an emotional breakdown yesterday and I was considering ending my life. For months I've been waking up feeling miserable, not willing to do anything and crying my eyes out. Its been really bad because I've been fighting with family, friends, my boyfriend. I would come out of no where in violence rage when I feel bad about it after the fact, but I still do it. I really don't know what to do. Does anyone have any situations? Any tips? Because yesterday was really frightening, and I really don't want to go through another day of being close to a knife and actually going through with it. I feel that I am alone in the world and that people just use me when they want something done, sex, or want me to spend money on them, etc. I had a long talk with my boyfriend about this and I still don't feel happy about the whole situation. He mentioned that I should go on some type of meds, but I really don't want to do that... Ya, over half of America is on some type of anti depressant, but just the thought of it.. I don't know.. Anyone? help?