Hey, I'm new here so I'm not 100% sure how this is supposed to go. I'll just try to be as concise as possible.
Basically I've known this girl for about a year. She initiated everything, apparently (though she never told me directly) thinking I was the love of her life. Long story short, I got 3 strikes against me:
December: When she was about to tell me she loved me, talked about how I still liked my ex (we weren't going out at the time). She kinda distanced herself then, until:
February: Was 4 hours late meeting her, because I was out with some female friends (which of course I told her, thinking honesty = good)
a month ago: said some mean stuff about her (didn't mean it but doesn't matter) on msn. The logs saved to her computer, oops, and she was very very upset. So since then, almost no contact with her, though I've been talking to her best friend, and learned:
1) That I was the "love of her life" and destroyed her.
2) That instead of just getting over me, she's still acting angry at me (which in my experience is a good sign, but who knows)
3) She destroyed this teddy bear I got her, but kept the flowers I dropped at her house a week ago, though she went online to check the meanings of all of them, found one meant "false love" and decided it was sign.
4) She calculated the price of everything I got her, realized that in total it equalled one week's allowance (20 years old with an allowance, ain't that sad?) and... I'm not sure. Wasn't impressed.
5) She told her friend she met some couples in which the guy did stuff way worse than me and are still happily together, and told her friend about this (kinda ambiguous, but according to the friend a very good sign)
6) Told her friend to stop talking to me (which she obviously didn't) because it was giving me hope, but... it was surprisingly ambiguous.
Anyway she's spending a month and a half in Europe, mostly in the south of France, and I decided screwit, I'll take a week off class and go there, partially to see her, partially just for the gesture, and partially because... why not, travelling is fun. BUT I'm not sure if it's a good idea... the way I see it she'll either freak that I'm stalking her, or take it as one of the best things I could do.
I'm leaving in 3 days, and I want some idea of what could happen, and if this is a really stupid idea. Any help/advice would be great!