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my heart beats suddenly out of beat mastering the sense of uncertainty lingering deeply in the fears of the forgotten in the midst of the needy in the likely hood of the aftermath you break me down so hard yet so fast how do you do that? i take your words and believe your mutter you have me under a deep sleepy spell you're like a leech in the forest i walk past the lucious ferns and trees only to find you lingering there sucking the goodness out of me I am fortunate that i escaped you whilst I can hoping that i won't falll into your comforting arms wrapped tightly around me emptying me of life and love only to get hurt again. Stupid me for running back to you I am broken deep into the never ending dispare way beyond the feelings of the heirachy I try to mend the wounds you keep breaking me down i tried to hard to make the unpossible perfect i tried way beyond the amount i needed to but from you it's too little too late because you never tried you filled me with so much disbielf faulse promises that were never furfilled i hate it that i love you and that its hard to get over you why do i bother? too many chances with no evail i don't see you as a mistake just a mere learning curve but i hate that you took my feelings for granted why is it so hard to hate you ? why can't i hate you

](*,) wow this is totally crazy..... how could someone do this.... I just hope that she is ok. Mayb she challeneged the difficulties in her life into this whole situation, and needed the attention.... There have been a lot of accusations thrown about in this thread which i guess is just a way of dealing with it.... I don't think they were personal drillings on anyone, it looks as if that people were just angry at the situation.... I guess being an internet forum there are bound to be, from time to time, some of these sort of situations and the mods do their best to filter them out. ](*,) ](*,)

Porn is over rated!!! it's sooooooo staged..... are they even enjoying it or just putting it on for the cameras!!! are they faking it???? you can enjoy watching it but it's nothing like the real thing!!!

You don't need sex to make you happy!! Don't get me wrong, sex is great but it's not the be all and end all!!!

It sounds as if he is just trying to get your attention and to try all means to communicate with you. I aggree with the others and ask him why he is sorry, or just ignore him

i never had the pleasure of knowing Leah but in reading all these posts and reading about the effect that she had on people's lives, I wish i did have the chance. She was a beautiful person that seemed to go out of her way to make sure other people were ok. The world is a sader place without her My condolences go out to her family and all of her friends. She is in a better place looking down and protecting us all... God now has another angel! RIP

You stole the one thing that i refused to give don't worry my wounds are shallow just like your soul that i washed it away you found me here caught up in the moment will the rain come watch my pain just wash away i'll comprise with or without your dispise why does it continue to rain as if everything's been washed away? you stopped me from running to the outer will it be ok after everything's been washed away? the sirens inside my veins watch the approaching armys that stand so proud and tall ready to be washed away i will scrub and clean until i am ridden of the foundation that bought me to my knees maybe your neglect will wash it away? -------------------------------------------------------------------------- through your weakness i see guilt through my weakness you see power through your eyes i saw the hurt through my eyes you see the emotion through your hands i saw the electric pulses of confusion through my hands you saw the hiding intentions through your mouth i saw meanginless promises through my mouth you saw the pure truthfullness through your heart i saw false pretences through my heart you saw it broken. but my weakness is hidden by my power my eyes keep a watchful eye my hands will only hold those most valuable my mouth will only speak words of truth and my heart will eventually reopen with full intentions of love __________________ Would you love in all its finery tear at the darkness all around me until i can breathe again until i believe again

thanks for the comments guys, much appreciated. Never really wrote poetry before, but it's amaizing what you come up to when you bulked down with thoughts and emotions, it just flows out !

only slow moves remain to to save your day in heart beats and broken arrows who will save your day in all that you deliver a shimmering delicate flow in all that exists because all that you deliever are lies and decite your skin like an empty cavity empty and dark you left a blood stain on my heart hide from yourself and watch how you disappear in your darkness and disappear i will wait for you in the sunshine bright with the doves singing in the cool light breeze they say this is life some like the dark they find refuge in it hiding way below all their stones of hatered their prisions of disbelief their rubble of life. shelter me from their darkness take me to the sunshine where there is peace where the sun shines brightly against my once kept sheltered skin where my eyes can envision the escape where the flowers smell their sweetest.

How to make a bird is a great book. It was written by Martine Murray

that was beautiful.... so deep and meaning and yet sooooooo very true..

hey rough patches turn us into stronger people in the long run. maybe just focus on the now and take things one step at a time. A holiday/weekend away sounds great, it would give you enough time to just chill and relax in order to clear your head a little. Also i find trying to focus on the positives rather than letting the negatives bring me down......... like you have a steady job, nearly finished school/college (lucky you i am jealous) and you are in a stable relationship....... i know it's hard but i am sure that it will get better for you good luck with it

lol does anyone have a hot Vagina!! i agree with day_walker that not orgasming maybe have something to do with your preceeption of your vagina......... so love your vagina for what it is, and all your problems will be solved. hehe

Maybe a dream dictionary could help you??? i have broken down a couple of dreams a few times that the meanings were pretty spot on. here are a few links: link removed link removed

it's great that you both are still on talking terms and everything. Just think about why you broke up in the first place again, and the heart ache that you went through. is it worth it? But then again maybe the break up was the best thing for your relationship because after it all it made you realise how much you appreciate each other, what you had and how it made you happy. I reckon just take it one step at a time, don't have too many pre empted expectations, just in case for one reason or another they are not met. Just ask him to hang out as friends if he is comfortable