Broke NC at day 11 and then again 3 days later.... got mad at myself, but then gave myself a break. I’m only human. I thought he was being nice in text, but I soon realized I was seeing what I desperately wanted to see. I finally saw it for what it really was I saw the truth... “indifference” on his part. This after begging and pleading and blowtorching to get me back for a month and a half 6 months ago... after almost 18 years... yup you read that right 18 YEARS. Well now it’s day 3 and I’m determined this time. I know I’ll do it, because the feeling I had the other day realizing the indifference made me realize I NEVER want to feel that again. So working on myself now and onward and upward....
