Jen91x

I got the love of my life back. Unfortunately he left me again. (I'm 28 he is 30) Long story short. Me and my friend fell inlove, I've never loved someone that deep before, I don't think I will again. Because he wasnt just my lover he really became my bestfriend also. First time he broke up we hadn't been together more than 2 years. And we lived together that time as well. He broke up mainly because I relayed on him too much when it comes to being happy. I made him my world and lost myself in the process. Anyways we were FWB a whole year after the breakup. Then one day I decided enough, either be with me in a relationship or I'm out, I deserve better. He panicked and cries and begged me to be his again. I took him back eventually and he promised me forever. And then awhile ago he ended it again, after 1 year. This time it wasnt because of me, it was because himself. He is too depressed about a lot of stuff in his life, probably most that he is 30 and cant hold onto a job, he cant provide. But there many other factors as well. First time he broke up I begged him to please give US a chance again. This time I told him I accept his decision. Because I do. It sucks because I love him so much! But if he cant love himself , he cant love me. I truly wish him the best in this world and I hope he one day will find happiness within himself! And who knows, maybe one day he will come back and maybe just maybe I will let him in again in my heart. But for now, I'm gonna focus on myself and only me.