weezusishere

You ended our nearly 4 year relationship almost a year ago, two months before I was going to propose to you. We talked and it seemed like a couple times there were would get back together, but ut everytime we got closer, you were talking to someone else and tried to pursue something with them and they just used you. I know you were diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, but I read up on it since we have split and I know I'd be an even better partner to help you with it and I told you as much. I also wrote you a letter, one that I poured out my heart and made promises and laid out what could be a great future. But you lied again, saying you needed time at your new job and had to move soon so you had to focus on that. Instead, you were talking to another guy, who used you and knocked you up with twins wants nothing at all to do with you. You texted me how you were going to be a horrible mother, how the kids would grow up without a father and some other horrible things. Out of my love for you, I offered to be that figure and to be with you again and you've been silent ever since. I know everything is flashing to stay away from you and I have. The problem is even after everything thats happened and everything you've done, I still love you. And on this Saturday night when everyone is out, couples families and everything, all I can think of is you and I cant let that continue. I'll love you and wish it worked out, I really do. But I cant keep thinking about you anymore and i have to move on for my own sanity have to try to go on my own again, even after one year. Damn you. I love you.