Hi guys, if you've read my other posts you already know a bit. Yeah I'm still with her, because I do love her. But there are a few things I don't understand and I was hoping you could help.
She says she misses me, but takes forever to answer and I've asked what she been up to and she won't tell me much. One afternoon she got defensive saying she been doing things about the house ( and I was just asking, making conversation )
She won't add me on social media ( Facebook, she first added me and then unfriended me without saying. When I asked her she said that it was because of women I had in my friends list since high school. So I deleted all of that and she knows. And on Instagram she has never wanted to add me, lied saying she never uses it and then keeps sending me instagram videos. When I confronted her about it she laughed) despite me posting photos of us together, saying I'm in a relationship, etc. With the excuse that she doesn't want to make it official to her family yet.
Only met her mother because her mother saw a phot of us in her house ( which she used to hide) and one day she happened to turn up at the same place we were eating. But she's met mine.
She sings and whenever I go to see her she makes us hide away ( before the concert, during the break and after)
She gave me the key to her place, and whenever she seemed to be upset for reasons I couldn't understand I would go to see her to talk with her. But she hardly ever wants to talk about what's wrong. She took the key from me. Then said one day she had a nice keyring for it, I didn't think much of it. Then she left it there with the new keyring on it. So I told her I liked it very much and did that mean I could keep it. She first said yes and straight away said "well you can use it while you're here and then leave it"
We are supposed to go to Rome for Holliday in May, I've got the tickets and sent her hotels to check out. I asked her if she had checked them out and she got angry saying she hadn't had time. Still waiting.
As I said she takes forever to answer, doesn't want me to sleep with her every night. She ignores my messages.
Ive been trying to cook for her more, have lunch ready or dinner for when she comes back. Yet she complains about the oil ( it's normal if you fry stuff, and she does the same) I wash the dishes all of the time, help her take out the dog, the Rubbish, clean the house. Because I love her. Yet the other day she was ill ( apparently this is why she didn't answer my text) so the next day I went over to help her. I hadn't slept much and she left me sleeping. Only to later on rub it in my face. I said let me do the dishes, and she said that I don't do the dishes. When I'm always doing them. I would have never done that to her. If she needs to sleep she needs to sleep.
I also pay for a lot of our food, nights out to dinner or lunch. It just seems like she disappears when I don't see her and then will hardly tell me what she's doing. She doesn't want anybody at work to see us either if I wait for her outside.
I can't tell if she's serious about us, she says she loves me, has cried about her insecurities thinking that I don't like her when all I do is want to see her all the time, talk to her over whatsapp and she doesn't want to talk much, I've more than proven that I love her.
So I have no idea anymore if she's serious about us or not. We even went to see a house together to live together, she didn't like it so we said to see more. I sent her more houses and she never got back to me about it. Yet she seemed excited...
When I try to talk to her about my day at work or something I know about like forex she just cuts me off. Yet I always want to hear about her day.
By the way, when I talked to her about the key, social media, meeting her family, she said that she wants to take things slow to get to know me better. Yet we've been dating a year... She's never posted a picture of us yet she takes photos with me.
So it just all seems so confusing, mixed, and I feel at times like I'm being a pain or I'm below her. She treats me as if I know nothing. She doesn't seem to take me serious yet other times she all love and cried and says she loves me a lot.
What do you guys think, is she just stringing me along and using me for sex, money, attention? She has this other guy at work, a friend who she said drunk one night that we was going to paint singers for her. And he would do it for free... She said she offered to pay. She also said that she can talk to him about anything, which she should be doing with me. Haven't said anything as I don't want to seem insecure.
Just don't know where I stand with her. If it's me or not. If she's serious about us or not.
She doesn't want to decorate for Christmas either, yet she used to. Won't tell me why she's doesn't want to.