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  1. Forgot about this forum bit made a promise before that ill post when something good happens from my break up. Sept 2018 broke up with ex fiance. Tried (not desperately) to remain in contact with her. For 2 weeks. (Wanted her back) but I found out she had a thing w/ her coworker and so they dated etc. Less than a mo. I decided to go no contact cold turkey. Deleted everything. I did all of these not because of hatred but to help me move on. After 2 mos, I started moving on. Slowly forgetting her. It has been 8 mos. and a getting back together is happening. Not with my ex fiance though but with my childhood crush when I was 16 yrs. I met her recently because of a common friend. And we have been talking and getting to know each other. I plan to take it this slow as we both have stated our intentions. Not the getting back together youre expecting but better. Just focus on qhat is good in your life. Things will happen for you kist give it time :) stay strong everyone!!
  2. Wow. Juat remembwred this site and how it helped me. It has been 8mos but honestly it feels like it’s been 2years. Dont know what to say. I have moved on. Just thought about posting aomething here because that sounds fun and curious to what I have to say. I wish all the best really. Work, etc. I hope you are finding whatever it is in you are searching for. That’s all. Haha
  3. I was not plannjng to post anything here but after reading the previous messages, I feel like “communicating”. Anyway, it’s been almost 3 mo. since you broke up 2mo. since the last time we spoke. I only initiated a conversation 3x. You never did. The first time, you said hurtful things. Told me our relationship was not toxic at all but what I could offer you was not enough. The second time was when I told you I understood the situation and that we had to move on. I told you that we can still be friends. I forgave you that time and you said thank you and that maybe, when we see each other in the streets, we can say hi to each other. The last time I spoke with you, I admitted I was having a hard time moving on and that I had to cut you off completely. Removed you from my life (social media etc) and I am glad I did. This time alone made me realize my worth to you. How easily I was replaced. How you never admitted any of your mistakes in the relationship. Never apologized for any hurt you caused me. I took it all in, believing that it was all my fault. But I would not have it any other way. This whole experience made me stronger and wiser. I will continue to look at the past and its debris of broken glass. I will not try to pick it up and fix it. I just want to look back and get all of the lessons that I could take from that experience. You are slowly fading away from my thought. I do think of you every single day but the details are startig to get blurry. You can’t blame me though.. you made it easier for me to move on. Your true colors, during the breakup, gave me enough reason to fight for my self respect and forget about you. It was surely painful at first but I am getting used to it. I am actually getting tired of thinking of you. Feels like a chore. Takes up too much of my time and energy. I guess I will just have to find a way to use those thought as a push to keep my life moving. It does not matter anymore what hapens to you. If you’re with him or not. If you’re regretting what happened or not. If you still want me or not. Honestly, most of me do not care anymore. But I still wish you happiness etc. No different from the way I would wish most of the people in this world even strangers happiness. (World peace mumbo jumbo haha) Ahh.. strangers.. yes.. that’s what we are now. And no. When we see each other in the streets, I wont have any intention of saying hi or avoiding you. I will simply be indifferent (i hope ). We are strangers after all. Thanks and godspeed in this journey called LIFE, buddy.
  4. 5 years and 3 weeks engaged. You already had a feeling for 8 months.. you were thinking about breaking up with me. I should have known.. How you started to drink because of your friends and never with me. How you started to watch TV shows because your friends recommended it while I recommended it earlier this year. How you would rather go, with your friends but not with me, to the place I was originally planning to propose. How you always mentioned his name. How you compared everythig about him with me. I knew deep inside but I trusted you.. You broke up with me telling me it was because of my job and my communication skill. How we were only ‘steady’ and ‘steady’ is not what you are looking for. How you have more fun with your friends than with me. How what I can offer is not enough for you. How you already lost belief in our relationship and its future. You said our relationahip is not toxic and that im actually a good guy I was blindsided.. while you were all prepared. While you had someone under your wings already.. ohh how easy was it for you to move on?? You left me broken and shattered to pieces. The last time we met, while you broke my heart. I was the one comforting you. Telling you it is ok to hurt me. The last time we talked.. you rejected me again. I prenteded that everything was ok.. I made you laugh and forgave you. You thanked me for making it easier for you to move on. Its been 5 weeks now and every single day I think of you and cry.. i blamed myself for the breakup.. i am hurting so bad while you are enjoying your days with your friend. You never noticed me. You are so cold. Did our time together ( 5 years ) matter to you? How could you? Did you ever love me? Why did you even say YES to my proposal? Why didnt you just end me right then and there. How dare you.. .. .. May you remember me with the kindness I showed you during the last time we talked and saw each other. You said that I will never change. But I am and I will be a better version of me. Too bad, you wont be the one to experience it. I am changing for someone who will fight for me. I will forever be scarred by what you did to me. I prayed for you and your new guy, that may you both find happiness.. but now, I pray for me.. that I may have the strength to forget you and not care about you. I want you out of my mind and heart. I want it so bad. I hate you but I’ll forever love you also my buds. I am still waiting and i hope you come back in time because i am slowly moving on..
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