BettyBee

I can't let you go. I can't stop thinking about you. I can't stop thinking about the day you tore my life apart. I can't believe you couldn't even have a conversation with me about it before it came to this. I can't believe you blamed me for everything when you know exactly why I was the way I was and you know how much of it was a reaction to you. I can't believe you brought up something from 2 years ago and acted as if I should have known how you *really* felt about it even though you'd been saying the oposite for 2. Years. You can't expect me to accept that believing you was somehow the wrong thing for me to do. You can't blame me for not getting your 'blunt' conversations when the best I could get out of you was 'I don't know'. You should have listened to me when I told you not arguing wasn't always a good thing. Sometimes you have to get it all out in the open and not let it fester and rot the whole relationship. I love you but I hate the way you've taken everything from me and made me feel like I don't matter to anyone. Like I don't exist to anyone anymore. You knew I had a lot more to lose than you and you couldn't even let me have one friend to help me through this.

Why is this so easy for you? How can you just dust yourself off and try again? It makes me feel like I meant nothing to you. I just want to know you're hurting like I'm hurting. It doesn't seem fair you can be happy when you are the reason I'm this miserable.