DatingUgh

F***********ck.....so, you can read about my tale of woe with "Woman 2" here. https://www.enotalone.com/forum/showthread.php?t=550789 We (not sure who really) called things off, got back together, then after an awkward evening, we had been texting a day or 2 later and after some awkward texts (on both our parts) I broke things off with her after arguing. This was about 5 days ago. I've been doing really well for the most part being all "if you can't give me what I need then best of luck to ya!!!!". Also, since then, and I literally can't help this, I've been doing a bunch of reading to try to understand why she is the way she is, and understand why what happened, happened. This is just who I am. I'm a scientist, and very (overly) analytical. I need to know the "why". I've come to find out she is extremely emotionally unavailable. Bad childhood, bad relationship with father, 2 divorces with crappy men. She literally meets all the criteria about an emotionally unavailable woman. And while reading about signs of an emotionally unavailable woman in my research of trying to understand things, I read this. http://www.newlovetimes.com/how-to-love-emotionally-unavailable-women/ Well crap....that just wants me to put my knight in shining armor suit on and bear the brunt of her emotionally unavailability and "stay" because that's what she needs me/someone to do in order to love her and for her to love me back. TOTALLY disregard my needs, which coming out of a divorce myself, is not easy. This is supposed to be MY TIME to be selfish for once!!!! Goddamn it! I don't know if I'm going to reach back out to her or not honestly. Why would I even bother subjecting myself to such torture? Am I really just a sucker and glutton for punishment? There is seriously something wrong with me. Or maybe, the words of Bruce Willis in Live Free or Die Hard, "That's What Makes You That Guy". That was fricken stupid. This woman drives me nuts to say the dumbest sh*t and we aren't even together anymore. God help me.