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  1. My opinions and feelings are still so conflicting. I still feel like my heart and my head are fighting every day. I miss you still, of course. I kind of thought after four months I would be well on my way to getting over you, and I suppose in some ways I really am. But you're like a fly buzzing around, giving me breadcrumbs through my friends and family and swiping right to me on tinder...... how annoying. Maybe you're doing it intentionally or maybe you're just looking back in confusion the same way I am. I never wanted to have to get over you but I'm trying every day and fighting my heart every day to move on from you. Please stop contacting my mother. It's manipulative and out of line. No, I don't want to be friends with you. It's definitely not because I don't miss you. It's insane how much I miss you. It's because I can't just remove four years of intense love for you and see you in a purely platonic way. It would be disingenuous of me if I tried to be your friend. You want to see other people and hook up with other people but you still want to try to keep me in your life somehow. You don't deserve me. You don't get to have me in any aspect. You made this choice and I'm loving myself enough to stand up for myself. I'm better than someone who needs a "break" from me. That's not what love is. Love is understanding that your partner is there for you and will fight through anything with you. I would have done anything for you. I'm mad that I have to move on from you, I'm mad because I deserve someone who will fight for me and you clearly aren't that person. I really, really wanted you to be that person. I don't want to have a big, long, drawn-out conversation about WHY you think the breakup was justified. I don't know exactly what it is you want to talk about but I know it won't help anything. You should have told me the things wrong with our relationship when we actually had a fighting chance. I would have done anything to save what we had, but you didn't give me a chance. You decided yourself it wasn't worth fixing and ended it. You gave up on us. I would love to talk to you only because I miss you so much. You were my closest friend. But I don't need closure from you and I don't need your self-serving attempt at trying to relieve yourself of guilt. We aren't going to be friends for a long, long time, and I'm going to be mad for a long time.
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