Day 20: Two thirds through the 30 day challenge and this is getting worse, if anything. I haven't contacted or looked her up at all. I think the great weather is making it worse, we'd be out walking together these evenings if we were still a couple. Hooked up with a girl again on Saturday night, nice for a while but not in the long run, she only reminded me of what I've lost. I drink at the weekends to forget she's gone but then the hangover kills me and it's back to work and the miserable cycle continues. This ain't working.