Dagger76

I can learn to do that and help her. And i will. But it's not the point. You should be here too. She'll remember you weren't. It'll come back on you.

Our 9 year old is crying in her room brcause its picture day and she can't get her hair to work. Sad because the only picture she liked was her grade primary one (shes in grade 4) because that was the ladt time "you and mommy were together and shes not here now". With all the crap kids have to go through about self conscious issues its piled on for her because mommy decided to someone else behind daddy's back instead of talking and being an adult She sees you all the time since we're 50/50 but you're not there the other 50 . On purpose. I know your cokd hearted was will brush this off as nothing . It's all good shape can text you for advice . But the text doesnt show the tears. I hope she remembers times like these and when she's old enough to understand fully it was your choice to only be with them half the time this little girl let's you know how sad it made her and I hope you feel the pain

I have kids with mine so we have to sparsely talk but pretty much this is me. Feel like having to have her in my life so importantly but have her not in it at all at the same time this will never end.

Yeah im fully aware of thst and after what has happened its be a miracle if that didn't happen if she did come backand if i did tske her back It's just much more the feeling youre left with that you ment so little to someone. First to disrespect you so cruelly then to seemingly not give a crap that you did. And to me out of nowhere after we ment so much to each other. So one sided at the end. Very aware and accept that its mostly her . Her issues . Her character. That no matter what issues you had that rarely about you. It just still stings though. I do miss what we had and It's so sad she doesn't. Or not enough. When I see so many out there in my own space at least trying. Maybe they're situations are not ideal now but at least they're trying. The fact she seems to have gone out of her way to negate any chance of that is to this day hard to accept.

Hang in there too!

Thanks. I know. Just seems my circle of people i know and some I dont too personal everyone gets back together. Its hard to see

Why are you the only person I seem to know or see online that is never going to come back? Never make amends? Never say your sorry and truly mean it? We had a marriage . Two kids. I raised a daughter thst is not mine. I still do ! Two years after you cheated, moved on. Ignoring me and being angry and treat me like a stranger? You text to only about little then nothing for weeks! You imploded this and you don't even have the decency to file for divorce or even take me up on talking. You left you were gone and I have to see you and at the same time not talk to you about anything for my own sanity Because while i watch you date other men and get glimpses that you just want on like nothing happened and have to accept that. LITERALLY EVERYONE ELSE I SEE RECONCILES. Tries again . Shows something to someone they once loved.your best friend has done this! Relationships not anywhere near what we had. What we lost. I hope it's because also what you did to leave and after you left you see like I do. So much so toxic. Almost impossible to come back from especially to such a coward who knows how badly they ed up. How childish and immature and cruel you have been. But it would have been nice of you to try. Just once. Why are you the only person who won't?

I wish with all my heart I could wish youve happy mother's day. But you made it impossible. You cheated on me two days after our last one together and have been so completely unremorsfal and abandoned me and to you it seems like our 7 years marriage never happened or ment nothing to you. But this day for me in regards to you will always be tainted by your actions and the last two years of your coldness. And for me that's worse than your betrayal. I'll never be able to thank you for our girls. You made it impossible. And i dont see a day that will change. And from my perspective I doubt you care.

You just picked up the kids. Gave me a hslf little smile .awkward no doubt because we have nothing to say to each other anymore. Or we di but neither of us ever will. You hurt me so bad but it still pains me to think youre takibg my kids to spend time with another. Our second Christmas apart and i dread the next lifetime of them.