emadacuz

When you texted me last night to tell me that you have been a bit of a c**t and your life is not as happy as you expected to be without me, I felt sad. But at the same time I got my "revenge". It was nice to talk to you again like a normal person. I wish you all the best because I love you so much. I am not in love with you anymore, but I want you to be happy and to shine in your life. I hope to see you again at some point

I wish you a good day... and I hope you are smiling now, I can't look at you when you are sad.

Need your cuddles tonight...

Well, I feel great. I clearly see now that you still love me, but you kicked me out of your life and you now have what you deserved. You are jealous now because I found someone to replace you? You feel bad because I exposed your bullcrap? I never thought I would say this, but revenge tastes so sweet. And I didn't even try hard. Thank you for everything, I loved every moment we spent together. But in the end, you were just a liability. I love you and I will miss you.

Sweden was good, and mission accomplished: I found a job for you. I don't want anything in return, just some respect. I also met me an old friend of mine, there. We flirted a lot a few years back, we still flirted over the weekend. We had a lovely dinner and an amazing night out, chemistry was definitely there. Now that I am free, I think I will make my move on her... she already made hers on me, by the way It is funny that you left me to live a better life, but now I am the one enjoying while you spend the weekends in bed watching Netflix... oh, the irony. And I am sure no one makes you feel inadequate right now, since you basically vegetate under the blanket. Yes, I told you "I miss you". I do miss you indeed, because it is hard to find someone who is so "bad mannered" without being a complete a**h**e or a c**t. I am surrounded by extremely polite and serious people, and you were bringing some boldness in my life. I will just adapt PS: I still wanna see you in December, so you can tell me about your miserable life and I can enjoy see you suffering. Ah, also it really seems that the one who has not got fully over it is you. Your silence and your attitude when we "communicate" is clearly a mechanism of self defence. And yes, now I can finally feel free to analyse you

I wrote you a long letter, but I am not going to send it to you. You don't deserve to know how I feel.

I can't, I simply can't. This sadness is killing me, it's eating me alive. I am going to Sweden tomorrow, where we wanted to go together. I am sure I will break down and cry at the airport. My life does not make any sense anymore. I don't know what I want, I just want to see you and spend time with you. I don't ask you to be together, we got over that. But at least to be in each other's life. I miss you, every day I miss you more. And you seem to drift away from me... slowly but relentlessly.

Good morning poo face Counselling helps, you should try it too. I keep missing you, but it's different. I don't miss the small things now, I don't miss us cooking together, or watching TV, or talking crap. I miss YOU. I don't miss the relationship, I miss you as a person. Have a great day, it is almost weekend and I know how much you hate working for this company! Tomorrow you can relax and shine xxx PS: Stop watching romantic movies on Netflix and pretend you are not sad or hurt... you don't like romantic movies and we both know that

Oh come on, make up your mind! Leaving breadcrumbs on my Netflix account (yes, you can still use that, don't worry) is just so immature... PS: I love you? Really? What's next?Serendipity?

I just miss your funny face and your silly jokes. I want to call you, I want to hold your hand. I want to ask you if it is cuddle time.

I am starting counselling today, to try and get over the trust, motivation, and self-esteemed issue you kindly donated to me. Never, in 37 years, I had thought I need to some "the doctor of the crazies". But now I do. You not only shattered my heart, you shattered my all self. That man full of happiness and joy, balls of a bull, and strong inside does not exist anymore. It is gone, you killed him.

I read what you told me when you broke up with me... one month later, I can see how much you changed, how hypocrisy has taken over your life. How you locked yourself in you virtual world again, made of ice and nihilism. I am really sorry, for you.

And I would be really happy, for you and for me, if you told me you find someone else. I gave up on us being together again, and I am not jealous. I just can't see you like this, hearing that you have lost all the feelings, you hate people, and you only want to live with a dog and maybe a few cats. I know depression sucks, and I know you got out of it many times... last time we made it through together, but now you don't want me any close to you. Get well soon, don't pretend you are fine when you are clearly not. And if you still love me, don't be afraid of coming back to me. I always told that my door will always be open.

Today is hard. I would just stay in bed and crying. And yes, men cry.

What you said last night has really killed me. You had already broken my heart when you decided to leave me. Why do you have to stab me again, now that I have finally recovered? Why do you have to play with my and your feelings again? Why do you ask me if I still see us getting back together, when you know you don't want it and I had given up the idea? Why do say you want to be with me, but then you don't even want to try? I love you, and I don't want to lose you, because you are the best person I have ever met. Stop feeling inadequate and wrong all the time!!! Go and find someone who can love you the way you want, who can make you happy! Don't say you don't have any feelings, because I know you can love and be loved! I wish I could talk to you every day like we used to, I miss you. I miss your being silly and witty, clumsy and funny. Don't run away, please.