Psylocke

The thorns stabbing my mind bring tears of life Yet a slave inside my head I cannot change Time slips by creating memories No vocals to express my thoughts I recall the pain, not to live again Finding solace with torment The peace remains within

In my experience blogs (general term I use for myspace, facebook etc) that are read by real life friends cause way too many problems, especially if they are read by your bf/gf. I have a blog, but do not not have any real ties to the people that read it, meaning I have no other contact but at the blog site. My rl friends, family or anyone I personally know do not and will not read it. Blogs (general term) can be therapeutic in as many ways as it can cause you to dwell on past relationships. We all want to be armchair psychiatrists and these methods of displying our lives to everyone enable this.

If it's any comfort I had a nice backstabbing at work yesterday from a fellow co-worker who seems to think her work is more important than my 2 foot pile of paperwork. I was quite upset and still am this morning. To make matters worse my supervisor came to correct me, abiet loudly I might add, in my cubicle so others could hear her. Not only that but she went and told nearly the same thing to my partner who works along side of me. She had absolutely nothing to do with the situation. I've learned a long time ago to never share anything real personal with co-workers and that 'most' aren't really your friends but there to get ahead in their jobs. That extra quarter or 50 cent raise because the boss thinks they are pristine workers means a lot to people. My way of thinking is that these people are jealous of you (me). Why else would they want to cause problems and hurt you? Unless you are clearly breaking policy rules or not doing your job they have nothing better to do but to bully who they think is the weakest link (bad pun I know).

This thought enters my mind frequently being an only child and not having a bf/hubby. I am very close to my mom and a few other family members but when they are gone I will dread my existence here on earth. I try not to dwell on it.

Nope, no friend that would drop everything, some of my family might though.

Take my advice and run away from him unless you can really deal with someone who has depression, likes to brood and is antisocial. I know the itch is there to 'chase' and hope you can change him but there is nothing you can do until he is ready to change his behavior. Seriously I've went thru the same thing in the past few years and I'm a bit older than you. It's incredibly difficult to deal with and you end up blaming yourself and wondering what you're doing wrong because he won't be social or clams up and hides. We had txting, IM, dates (if you call it that), deep conversations and all that. Nothing changed and it become an odd 'very' close friendship when we were together.

Yes try and get in touch if you can. I've been in similiar situations and a text, email, IM or call can make a world of difference or it can mean nothing. Keep expectations to a minimum that way you aren't disapppointed if things don't turn out well.

I can relate and I am female! We have a couple real talkative ladies in our office and it bugs the living {mod edit} out of me. While I'm busy doing MY work they expect me to do theirs too. I refuse to pick up their slack now (I used to when I was first hired) and they are pretty nasty with me. Yes you have to socialize in order to be accepted and to make friends but they should limit the times when it's not during break periods. Everyone has to get up from their desk for 5 mins just to de-stress and make quick chatter to the person in cube or office next door, or at the watercooler.

I vote for email also but the drawback is uncertainy of whether the person actually read or even got the email. If you are positive you have an active email address then go ahead but remember if it gets in the spam filter or junk mail it might not get read.

Well I've dated one that was a little older than you and my experience was not a good one. I dunno if you are considered a mama's boy but this guy definitely was. His mom made his lunch for work, ironed his clothes and so forth. I was appalled that a guy of his age that made good money and could afford to live on his own (trust me I've seen his paychecks) would consider using his mom like he does. Honestly the independance of a man is much more attractive (to me).

Yeah I get them also around my neck area. I just tweeze and go on with life Not sure what causes it.

I would expect to hear from a friend, whether email, IM, in person or whatever at least a couple times a month. People's schedules do get mucked up every now and again so sometimes there can be a long span of no communications. Friendship is a two way street, if it's only going one way there's something wrong.

Been there, am there now. It can be a frightening choice to make but honestly there's a huge feeling of pride when you make it on your own. It's like "yeah this is MY place, I decorated it, I cooked my own dinner and I keep it clean or try to. It's great to have people over without the parents around. This is all part of maturing/growing up and a perfectly normal feeling. Make the break but just make sure you are within your budget when finding a place and you should be fine.

I know I'm there right with ya itsallgrand!!! 8) 95% of the time I feel the exact same way. Life is so much simplier this way.

I'm on the fence trying to decide if it's better to be alone or have lots of fake friends. You get tired of being there when they need you but when you need them they run far away. I swear strictly online only friends are the best solution for me. I have a couple of them that actually care more than any rl friends. Most of my friends say they are too busy with family to bother with me, but that one day when kids are grown and out of the house they will come running back and I will be too busy for them. There are days I feel friends are overrated... Just this week I've pissed off two friends and I haven't a clue how I did it. I'm 37 I don't need or want to play the childish highschool games anymore. If I don't feel like talking or having company they should understand after 10+ years of friendship. I rarely do this because I need their support but just one day I want to be left alone and poof they take it the wrong way.