Kate99

God, destinyshine, you are only 15!!! Jesus, it is okay!! People around that age are all nervous and don't really know what they want, and do not know who they are yet.... Around college is the best itme to date, because even though youm ay not know what you are-you are more comfortable in your own skin...It is ok to feel the way you do. Being Chinese does not limit your social activity-it may seem like that now, but it doesn't. People whether now or later-as much as that sucks-will realize that you are worth getting to know. There are billions of different types of people-you will find one!!! Hugs.

HEY GUYS!!! Why don't you ask yourself why it is that you want a girlfriend so desperately? Is it ragin' horomones? Or are you seeking some sort of intimacy with them that you feel you do not have with your buddies? None of thatm atters when you get older-looks, who has the best looking car etc. It's all shite. I am older than most of you and none of it matters. Usually the "cool" people in highschool are not soo cool after highschool after all. Trust me. I am in university now, and life is well, different. Trust me boys, when people start to grow up...(ie. around 20 or so..lol) none of that petty stuff matters. People start looking at people as people and not as commodities.

Oh lass, If you are serious about killing yourself, talk to someone. But remember, how you feel now is not necessarily how you will feel in six months. I have tried to kill myself many times.....I do not want to die anymore. If I could wrap my arms around you I would.

Well, I have read so many posts on here, especially from one eighteen year old boy who is very confused. I understand this confusion. I have been there. I am now in university and still grappling with many things. I may not particularily know what it is that affects you so, however I have felt alone often. I mean, what are friends really? I have people around me and yet I feel so alone, there is a difference. The only thing that can help anyone who is depressed is time and self analization. I have depression and have been so for about five years now. It is difficult and you seem to feel like there is nothing, that you hate yourself, but you are too weak to kill yourself. I have felt this. Trust me. I wanted to die sometimes, I wanted to not die, but not live either. I was so confused and pissed about myself and the world. Time makes things not necessarily better, but you get more comfortable in your own skin, even if you do not know exactly what that is. I have so much love for people and the world which I depsize and it feels like no onecares about me as much as I do them. Ever feel like that? Life is for the pretty ones. I have gained 100 pounds since my depression diagnosis, and it is not easy. Life is life.