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  1. I'm sick of the emotional roller coaster I've been going through. I have so much anger towards you. I understand not telling you about my past from the get was wrong, but I don't understand how you were telling me how I'm the only girl you ever actually saw yourself marrying the same day you dumped me. I don't understand how gave up on me so easily especially over things that happened before I even knew of your existence. I have taken all the necessary steps to get over you and some how I still think of you everyday. I'm so angry for even giving you a chance in the first place because I got caught up in you so fast. I was so worried about you and you became my main priority overnight. And I honestly regret it the whole situation because when I decided to give you a chance I was finally healing from a prior situation. It took me forever to get over my relationship before you came around and I promised myself I would never let anyone hurt me that much, but you managed break me so fast. I don't cry myself to sleep anymore, and I'm finally back to my regular daily schedule, but I'm still so hurt. It hurts me that you have made no efforts to reach out to me. Regardless of this pain and I will continue with this process of moving on, I refuse to come looking for you ever. I just want to feel absolutely nothing for you.
  2. Today is day 36 for me and I think this is going to be my last post in this thread.... at least for a while. Going no contact immediately was the best decision I made regarding this situation. I feel great and I am ready to move on with my life completely. I had a date with a new guy this previous weekend, Im not ready to be involved with anyone just yet, but it felt good to just go out with someone nice and fun. I am so thankful for this thread because I feel like it helped me out a lot through this journey in such a short period of time.
  3. Day 29: I had another dream about him, but this one was different than the one I had the other day. This one was of us actually of us being together and happy. I feel like any type of dream about him just sets me back a little, because I start thinking of what they could mean. Regardless of these dreams, I'm not budging, I'm determined to just stay in no contact with this guy for good if possible. Im doing way better than how I was doing the first 2 weeks of the breakup , but I just want to heal completely and forget about him.
  4. Today is a month since my break up and day 27 of no contact. I had a dream about him abandoning me today and I'm not sure what it means, but I woke up feeling a little sad over that. Other than this dream, no contact is working for me, I actually deleted his number from my phone and removed myself from social media for a while. I have an exciting girls trip coming up next month. I'm going to keep pushing with this process of moving on. The more I think about my situation the more I'm thankful that this happened to me sooner rather than later.
  5. Today is day 19 for me. I honestly feel like this journey is a roller coaster because you never know how you can wake up feeling that day. One day I wake up feeling great and the next day I could wake up feeling crappy when I replay how everything went down. I'm having hard time understanding why it's that I don't have the urge to contact him, but I'm still hurt. It kills me know that he watches my snap chats whenever I do post, but have not said a word to me. Don't get me wrong I accept things as they are, but it still hurts like hell
  6. I believe today is day 13 for me, and I'm doing okay. I woke up feeling peaceful usually I wake up with anxiety, but today I woke up feeling great. I've stopped waiting for a phone call or a text from him. I'm accepting this situation for what it is. The important thing is that I can't let someone have that much power over my life. I've gained my appetite back and I'm going back to the gym today ☺
  7. Day 7. I thought I was doing okay. I even woke up feeling alright, but I just found myself breaking down into tears. I don't have the urge to text him or call him, but part of me wants him to reach out to me. I know NC is for me and I'm really trying here, but I'm not seeing the light at the end of tunnel today. I never thought I would be the girl who would be writing on an online forum about my personal life, but I don't know how to deal with the emotional roller coaster and I need help.
  8. Day 5 March 27, 2017.......... this is Day 5 for me, and it should've been day 8 if I didn't show up to his house un announced like a psycho begging for him to give me another chance and to hear me out. These 5 days haven't been easy, but everyday I get stronger. I decided to just delete all of my social media apps b/c he is on every single one of them and I'm not sure if I want to delete him or not just yet. I figured this is the perfect time for a social media detox and a great time to reevaluate my life.
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