jstudio

Have made some amazing progress these last couple of weeks. I had a slight hope I would get a nice holiday text at least. I don't know your number anymore, which has helped me not contact you. It would set me back. I've let go so much, and I know this is not healthy for me any longer. I guess this is more of a message to myself.

I'll always remember the good times that we shared. Someday, I hope we both can forgive for how this all unfolded. I still have a hard time holding you responsible for some of the choices you made, and I hope you know that I never meant to turn so volatile towards you in the end. We both made mistakes, and I'm guilty of hurting you too. I hope you are happy and can look back at all of this with the good memories.

Why can't I just see this for what it is... why don't you care like I do? I miss you every day. I wish this could have been different. I wish you wouldn't have proven to be such a liar. Why do I keep going around on this hamster wheel? Can't you see that all I want is for you to open your heart and at least respect me enough to talk to me, and tell me you forgive me? Maybe even just as a friend. Why did you lie and move in with my friend of 12+ years who chose your side?