Mcasa1026

This is the first time I realize, from the bottom of my heart, that we will never get back together. We probably will never talk again. I miss you every day.

I wish I never knew you. I wish I didn't say yes when you first asked me out. Our relationship was full of your lies. Yes, I couldn't give you stability, but you should have let me go when you had a chance. In fact, you had so many chances. I don't blame you. I blame myself for everything, for fooling myself just so we could be together. I don't hate you. I hate myself for still wanting you to be happy. Please let me go. Wish me happiness, wish me the best luck, and wish me to find my true love. I know you tried your best to love me. This is how things are supposed to end. We didn't do anything wrong but you have gotta let me go so I can move on.

I have a strong feeling it's going to be my last post about you. NC helps a lot. I don't know since when I stopped thinking about getting you back, checking for your messages and emails, stalking you on Facebook and stuff. I just wanted to say thank you for giving me this opportunity so I can grow and so I will have a better chance to pursue my happiness, or a better life! I am grateful have have ever met you. Best wishes, M

I know it was your birthday. I didn't forget about you. I just need to love myself more than you.

I have been talking to some of my coworkers and they are all expecting to see me again, wishing me good luck or pray for my return. My friends are all asking me when I will be going back. It seems that everybody is waiting for me to return. I wonder if you feel the same. Do you want me to go back? Or you think I should stay here for good so you will never have to see me again? Or you don't even care? I don't know...

21 days into NC. I still miss you and think about you all the time. I read the last email you sent me everyday, as if you're alive in your words. You are right: Words do mean things. I have grown a lot since we parted and come to realize how things could have been done better in the past. It's painful you know? Breaking up with you was the most difficult decision made in my life, but deep down I felt that's the best for us. I love you.

I can't seem to forget abt you. There's a glimpse of hope in me that you might come back. Though it's been three months, everything still feels like yesterday. I miss you so much.

14 days into NC. I just set a new record there, though we weren't really conversing last time we talked. How's your life? What's new? Did you get the promotion? Do you have time to make breakfast every morning? Do you have time to cook dinner? Do you remember to take out the trash every Tuesday? Have you packed my stuff? Have you started meeting new people? I miss you so much, as a lover and a friend. You were my best friend. I am glad I got to share my life with you. It was always fun and exciting. Honestly, the thought of reconciliation still pops up in my head sometimes. However, just like you said, we didn't have stability. I understand, as much as it hurts I know letting you go is the best. That's probably the bravest thing I have ever done in my life, because you deserve to be happy and pursue your dreams. I wish I could have been there to support you. But I didn't know how. Please forgive me.

We will slowly forget about each other, right? Is it how things always end?

Up to this day I still don't understand why we broke up. I used to think everything was great and we'd love each other till death. Apparently I was ridiculously wrong. I wish you could tell me why you chose to walk away. Thinking abt us still makes me cry. You know what will help me? Tell me the truth, tell me something like "it's ok, you have done your best to love me. You couldn't have done it better. Our relationship ran its course, just like a terminally ill. It's meant to be the way." And I will let you go, I will let go everything and wish that you find your own happiness. Why does everything have to be so hard? Pleas let me go.

I finally let you go three weeks ago. My heart has been with you ever since we parted, and it's already been three months. Can you imagine that? We used to see each other everyday. Now we are slowly getting used to the distance and separation. Do you ever miss me? Do you still think abt me everyday? I have to resist the urge to contact you because I know we need this time apart, because breakup is the best for us. We can't be together, we have done too many damages in our relationship and there is no turning back. I wish I could have done things differently, I wish we could go back and start again. But no one can undo anything in the past. I am hoping we we both heal from the hurt we caused each other. I never wanted to break up with you but I couldn't stand it anymore. It hurts me so much to let you go. I feel my heart has been torn apart. I cry myself to sleep and wake up in tears everyday. The days have been so hellish without you. I hope you are well. And I hope you remember me. I love you.