lovelyworld

I'm so sad today. It's been almost 3 weeks since I've last texted you, and my days have been through a rollercoaster. Last night and today I cried. I still can't believe how hurt I feel. I still can't believe the way you did me. I think it's for sure done and over this time. It's just scary to think of it being completely over. It breaks me knowing you've moved on with someone else already. Everything I ever went through with you feels fake to me now. Everything. You seem so happy, how?

Day 2 It's his birthday today. Such a weird feeling. First time in a while I don't wish him a happy birthday. He seems so happy. I wonder if he will even notice that I didn't wish him a happy birthday.

Day 1 I have already been doing NC for almost 2 weeks, but it's my first day on here doing this challenge. I think it has gotten a lot easier for me to not contact him, but I still feel the betrayal every day. Was everything so fake?

I am resisting the urge to message right now to tell you this hurts and I miss you. There are so many reasons for me to not be with you, but love for you is the only reason I seem to listen to. I have a feeling you're not even feeling sad, and it is only me. I know you were talking to other girls, so I don't know why I even still want you. I am a fool, honestly. But I have done all I could do, I have done my part, and you chose to not fight for us. And that's what hurts.

Day 4. It sucks. Feels like day 1 because I unfriended him on social media yesterday. I've been grumpy all day, and I'm mad he has an effect on me even when we aren't talking.