jdann

Its been nearly 2 months when you said a "break" to miss eachother. I know now that was a lie. You always told me never to end things and planned so much for the future. I know uni its a massive change but why end it between us so soon. You gave your ex before me about 10 chances every time he cheated on you and that relationship was 6 months. You dont even give me a chance to make things work and we was togther 3 years ? Why ? Ive thought of you an incredible amount everyday, too much thinking of you. Why was things ended when things was going so well just weeks before. You had heart problems and had to wear a monitor and who showered you ? Who took care of you the whole weekend, I dont deserve this, I helped you through 3 of your toughest year which you have said yourself and now you just hang me out to dry. I hope youre happy. I was so loyal and I think you forgot how badly you have been treated by your previous ex's. I didndt even have any friends who was girls and didnt even talk to girls. I cant believe you havent initated any contact since the break up only for my bday. Its starting to me feel you never really loved me. You said you did all the time and I i felt that. But was it an act ? A 3 year act just to get through your life untill you went to Uni ? I never got a full closure and I think I deserve one. I would love it if you actually did miss me and wanted to message me to make things work our last converstaion was you saying you wanted to be friends which I said I didnt but would be open to working on things and said if you changed your mind, let me know and you said Yeah I Will. But will you ? I am here trying to improve myself as a person for you which I shouldnt. But I want another chance, our relationship was amazing, never toxic. Seeing you with somone else would kill me and I know me being with someone else would kill you too. I hope you have your time to think and realise you made a mistake. I know we went 3 years with no break and Im still holding onto the fact it might be a break and we will get back togther, I just wish you could open up to me and tell me how you really feel. You have left me on a massive cling hanger and I need closure.