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  1. yes i permit you to share my problem with any body may be some proffessional. bye give me some solution
  2. hi I wont waste Your time I am 23years old. Presently doing my Masters degree. I dont know wheather you'll reply me or not. But still please do reply me personally at my mail id email removed if you can.Please dont publish my letter in newspaper.This is my personal request. My story is simple but still complicated.Here it goes...... I was happy with my life, I cleared my second year studies and happy to find myself in final year of my graduation.I do study away from home in private room there I came in contact with Sanjay a stranger to me. He was in my college and was a nice guy to have as room mate too.Soon he became my friend, than good friend and than finally best friend.We were always together,at room at college and nearly everywhere. With him one year was just like a blink and we had a very healthy friendship relationship.It was really a true friendship.Nothing was there between us which we didnt share every emotion,every feeling and alll that.He used to tell me about his friend Monica (whome he loved onesided and had never proposed her). One day he introduced me to Monica.I felt good to meet her as she was nice person to meet.One day Sanjay proposed Monica to be his betterhalf. I know he really loved her.But Monica refused and was not clear in her answer she adopted yes but nooo... statergy.She wanted some time.All this was very much clear to me.Both of them used to tell me everything perhaps they considerd me their good friend.Both of them being my good frineds I really wished them to marry each other. I tried my level best to convince her, but all in vain.I cant force anybody so insisted -i agree.She was saying NO but all her acts were saying YES- anybody could guess.She wanted some time so Sanjay gave her time to think over it,there was no change in our friendship,infact she became still closer to we two,in college we three were well known friends, always togethere even bunking the classes. I was very happy with my two frineds.Unfortunately a storm came and took everything away from me. One day Monica was upset because of her step mother harresed her a lot. It was me and Sanjay whome she used to tell everything. At that time she needed us and we were there for her. I wont praise myself but still I did had ability to console her nicley. I don't know why but because of my loving nature,that day she kissed me and gave me a tight hug and so did I. I .. I am sure it was real friendship love and nothing else. But oh my God!!! Our best friend Sanjay could not understand us and took it otherwise.I never expected such a orthodox thinking from his side.Monica was away and Sanjay showered me all those words to me which I could never think off. I being very calm and good friend to him just listened to his feelings. I was in no condition to tell him anything. I was really shocked. He made me resposnible for every thing and never said a single word to Monica perhaps becase he loved her thats why. He was gentle enough to tell me his feelings. He never fought or made quarrel with me. He was unhappy with my and Monicas relationship. He was unhappy becaluse he thought I and Monica his best frineds had hurt him.But what about me.... you know I was really upset because he was unhappy ( for his misunderstanding) I and Sanjay didnt wanted to lose eachother. I stopped discussing much about Monica with him.Why to invite unnecessary tension, so i did always avoided the word Monica in front of him.Now she was not in good contact with us because she had started her job after graduation and I an sanjay started doing our Masters. I know Sanjay is not kind of person who would intensionally hurt me,but when he got uncontrolled with his feelings {because of lack of contact with Monica} he started pinching me (hurting me } indirectly.He used to make taunts without any reason. One day I lost my patience and told everything to Monica,she too was shocked.I could not find any way so I asked her to understand my condition and got a Promise from her that she will never make any contact with me I mean no phone call, no emails and nothing unless she needs me badly.I thought it was time for me to select any one of them to keep as a friend and other to depart from my life. Monica being more understanding I asked her to depart from life. Now it is more than long long 6 months I havent heard her her voice.Every morning I wake up an tell to my self that it another day to kill. I really miss her a lot.On the contrary i had lost to original friendship with Sanjay too( we are just name sake friends) This is all becaluse Sanjay has lost trust, faith , loyalty in me.I am really unhappy. Now Monica is in contact with Sanjay, but even they have lost the originality. Sanjay has realised that I have left Monica because his distrust in me.Now just to take his responsibility off Sanjay is asking me to call Monica. But STILL I KNOW HE HAS NOT CHANGED HIS THINKING. Sometimes my HEART picks up the telephone receiver to call her and my BRAIN says me to keep it down. Brain says do you want to repeat the History??Do you want to hear those killing words againg?? The words pinches so much because they are Sanjays words - the one whome i loved so much and still I do love, because i know If i would have been at his place, perhaps I would have felt the same thing what he has. This is my simple story which is difficult to digest for a sensitive, and understanding person. All of us are unhappy.Now please tell me what shall "I" do. And without hesitation please do point out my mistakes if I had commited. What next can be done.Even I cant concenterate on my studies as he is my room mate.I am really upset, please do reply me at email removed no dear I never slept with her. And i am sure that I and Monica dont love each other. We were just good friends. Please do help now what shall I do. OHHHH nooo friend. First off alll let me thank you for your good and instant reply,but let me tell you that the story hasnt stopped and has changed a little bit.I really need your help and just read out this... Because off all the story we know, A time was there when it was really too hot, at that time Sanjay vowed that we three friends will never meet each other.HE was frank enough to tell about his vow to me and Monica.We all were unhappy for the same thing.But you wont believe me,just two days back Sanjay and Monica came to see me at my house. An hour we chat with each other, I met Monica after 6 months. Me and Monica could not meet each other AS WE DID BEFORE .I dont know why but i did kept a distance from her. I was unfortunate that i could not express my friendly-love to her.I didnt wanted but still i had to keep that distance. I was really not getting exact feeling, I was HAPPY; for Sanjay broke his vow and came to meet me with Monica.I think his arrival was a way to say SORRY to me. But at the same time I was unhappy too.. for that one hour was like we meet for the first time, we really had lost the originality. We all new what had happened with us but still no body could talk about it at all. We had a chat of some other things and it was all formal. I dont know how to tell you. Ohh god please help... As you might be knowing good friends can talk through smiles and Eyes,words were saying something else but I could clearly see anger and love in Monicas eyes for me.She is really angry for i had stopped mailing her and calling her. But let me asure you that as they were my guest I did treated them very well. Frankly speaking I dont want to repeat the history, so I dont call her or mail her.( this is what my BRAIN says).But still my HEART misses her a lot. I really have repect for my friend Sanjay.Even being hurt so much he has brough Monica to meet me.I am not geeting him,sometimes his acts shows THAT he wants all 3 as we were before and some times..........(YOU KNOW IT). I cried a lot after they left ( I dont know why) This is why i am confused, struggling with my Brain and Heart. please help whomesoever you may be, you really support me and guide me on the right track.So please do reply me. Just advice me what shall i do now. Shall i make a call to monica, if i do, wont it be a repeation of history?? Ok i believe that i should keep some distance for the Sake of Sanjay, but some feelings are not i not in our control, thats why i am saying that it might be repeation of history. And i wont be able to tolerate it if it happesn again. Please helppppp. If i wont call TO MONICA than they ( monica and Sanjay ) both might feel that i am egoistic and even they had came to meet mee i am not responding and am sticking with my so called thinking, ethics,nature etc. I just dont know what to do, I think now the ball is in my court and i have to take next step.I dont know what step to take. Please reply as early as posssible as your reply will really help me in making correct decision.
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