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  1. The last few days I have really been struggling about reaching out to you. I found out my dad's cancer treatment is not going well and the outlook isn't good. I wish you were still in my life to help me through this. But I have been strong and haven't reached out in 4 months. I say hi to you in the halls at work but thats it (outside of saying happy belated birthday the other day). You said you wanted space and that's what I've given you. You still keep tabs on me on social media and that doesn't bother me (social media is starting to tire me out anyways). But why have I wanted to reach out to you so badly lately? You left me just days after I found out and told you that my dad had cancer. You ended things but still wanted to be good friends. Well the one time I needed you as a friend what did you do? You wanted me out of your life. I've tried dating and to be honest it's exahusting and I think I'm just trying to fill a void. For now I will put the focus back on me and my dad but damn has the past few days been hard. If you came to me tomorrow wanting me back chances are I would take you back in a heartbeat. and to be honest, it would probably be the worst decision I could make. Everyone close to me (including some mutual acquaintances/friends) says I deserve better. I know I do. I just wish that next important person in my life came into my life now as I try to work through what could be the final stages of life with my dad. I never thought I could possibly lose my dad at 28 years old. I have to stay positive and hope for the best but the way things have gone lately it's hard to be positive. Now I'm just rambling, but needed to get all this off my chest. I miss you, but I know you aren't the right person for me. And I need to just let it go and focus on someone who has been my life and pay less focus on you, the person who was in my life for only 5 months.
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