day4 (16 days since BU)
restarting NC and hope that this time it will last longer. first NC lasted for a week, before he contacted me.
today i took it all in me to not text him. hormones like to mess with the head and the heart, making things way harder than they are. CONTROL YOURSELF GURLL . even if we do talk, things may get awkward and forced. so why put myself in the situation. i just want to hear his voice so that i can feel better and be soothed, but i dont want to be that needy girl anymore. he is not my crutch - only i can make myself feel better.
they say to take it one day at a time when going through a break up. but IMO, its really to take each moment as they are. i can feel okay one minute, and then spiral down in the next. but i will get stronger, yes.