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I told u that already, and I will tell 1000 times. I regret not accepting you as you are.

Im so proud of not drunking text you right now. Its so freaking hard. I just drunk a bottle of wine.

Tou must be insane for having the idea that I d give your things to your BF. I told you, I don't ever want to look in his face ever again. Had he come to my house, I would have beaten the out of him. Don't ever speak his name in front of me ever again. And know it's very inpolite of you to say that you d come and then try to sent someone else.

I finally ed a girl hotter than you. Turn down for what!

I ve almost finishes wrinting my suicide letters. Yours is the one that's missing, because it's so damn hard to write. You don't deserve my death, and I don't deserve this ty life without you. Guess we have a paradox.

Please, come back to me. I don't want to live my life without you.

L, if i ever kill myself over this heartbreak, I know how I ll do it. I will go early to College, to the students room. I will bring my perfume and spray it over the place, so it will smell like me. I ll write on the blackboard I love you. Adieux, mon amour". Then I ll put "ne me quitte pas" to play on the computer. I ll sit on the open window and smoke a last cigarrete. When you come in, I ll jump from the 8th floor. See u

Hi, L. I was feeling suicidal today. I never told you that, but I've felt this way a couple of times in my life. Mostly when I was a kid and felt I couldnt be the especial, smart girl that everyone thought me to be. I've felt this way again when you left me, and today I almost did it. But I called a friend, and we started a list of 10 things I should do before killing myself. It was very nice and I felt better. I guess o will wait a bit more before taking my life. I hope u miss me.

Our old friend, F. is moving to my house. No, he won't live with you. My friendship with him (in which I will work on and on) will not be one of the countless things you took away from me.

Remember how B used to walk us untill the bus stop? How he seemed concerned about our safety? I thought he was a friend. But, as it turned out, he just wanted to f*** you. I will never rely on a man to protect me or my GF(not u, by the way) again. Today, I beated up a guy who called me a mysoginist name on the street. I walk with a pepper spray. I will protect myself. Truth be told I wish I could protect you as well. Since I can't, I hope u learn to protect yourself, since a guy who pretends to be a friend of a lesbian couple just to get in to the panties of one of them can offer no safety at all.

Im not feeling okay right now. Im on my third cigarrete. I know you hate thoses, but they help the time pass. I miss you so so much. Everyone says you do not miss me. I hope this is not true. The only way im over you is the fact that you live in the apartment bellow mine. Bellow ours, from where I kicked you out. I know we need to break, because only that made me realize how much I love you, but I wish we never did. I wish we never met B. I wish I could punch something right now. I feel despair and you re the only onde that can take that away, but you won't. Please, make this end. I can't go on without you, little panda.

I think I just realizad what you saw in me 3 years ago, and that's really stupid. When you falled in love with me, I had just taken a bunch of minors to the beach at 3 a.m.. I had just tricked myself to believed I was in love with a guy I barely new (and I am LESBIAN), got heartbroken over him, and then toke you to have a sexual orgy with 2 other guys, which luckly didn't actually happen. I had made a very offensive post on facebook about the comitee of an important event just because I couldn't choose the hotel I'd been in. When we started to date, I went to a unkown city and hid under your bed from your mom. I then let you come to my home, miles away, without your mom's permission. Really, L., the M. you fell for was stupid. And now that I ve grown up, you fell for a childsh man, can't you see? He takes money from his dad even if he is 25. He took us out of the blue to an event far away, made you miss an appointement with your family and almost got us killed because we were in a weird street, under heavy rain, without any bus to go home. Later, he took me to a bike ride in a dangerous avenue with crazy cars. A few days ago, you missed your granpa's funeral because you were with him in a random place. Thank the godness i'm not like that anymore. I have a job, I study hard, I am responsible. And that's not attractive to you. Someone told me you look for people that are failures, like your dad. Maybe they're right. I look for a mature woman. I might have found her a few days ago. Then again, she might not be the one. Anyway, I will find the right woman for me while you have fun with your boy.

I can finally envision a life without you. What you did to me was emotionally abusive, and I will never tolerate that again. You said you will always love me, then please do me a favor: stay away from IMPA and my friends there. It's all I have left to rebuild my life from.

I hope your boy wears his love for you in a t shirt. I have written the pain you caused me in my skin.

Mom doesn't know how to help me anymore so she took me to her fighting class. I cried while we waited the teacher, but while I was there, among kicks and punches I had some fun thinking about your 'new' bf. I feel like joining a gym and then meeting him after college for a quick "talk"