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  1. Well I have no other choice but to choose myself. I can’t force him to reconcile but I also know that I want him to be remorseful and do everything an unfaithful spouse is spouse to do for reconciliation which he’s not doing. So, I chose me and I will focus on myself and heal from this.
  2. Thank you for being honest. I’m currently in therapy and hopefully I’ll be able to whole again and move on
  3. I want him back because I love him. I know he made a bad choice and I also understand that I shut down when he was unemployed. I was very stressed and I feel horrible that I hurt him so, I am willing to move past this because we were fine. Maybe, I still just too blind to see things rationally.
  4. Yes, I am in therapy now and I am hoping. I am able to realize this. I'm 30 and he is 32.
  5. Sorry, let me rephrase she is a teenager but shes 19 which, I still think its gross since he's 32.
  6. It's so hard to realize that because I still love him. I don't know why I am having a hard time letting go.
  7. At the end of November I found out my live in bf sexted his teenaged coworker. I was so distraught because I never imagined he would do something like that. When I confronted him he tried to back track and say it’s not what it seems but he then expressed that he messed up and it wasn’t as serious as lol making it. He expressed the sexting happened recently and he was the one who started it but he doesn’t want to be with her and it an act of ego. The next day, he stayed home and comfort me and the following day he said he was going to visit his mom and left and had been staying there. he expressed needing time and space to process things because he realized that he doesn’t love himself and puts all his love into others. He expressed feeling like I emasculated him while he was unemployed. In 2021, bf lost his job twice. I never blamed him and I knew the jobs were at fault. I had already been working three jobs and really wanted to quit one of them but couldn’t in order to help support us. Groceries, electric bill etc. i also sometimes covered his half of the rent if wasn’t able to make enough through Uber. I was so stressed out during that time from working and applying for jobs for him that I unintentionally was frustrated and shut down. I was affectionate towards bf and I didn’t do it as a way to punish him. now back to the infertility,after a few days I knew I wanted to work reconciliation and he was open to couples counseling. He was not open to cutting his coworker off because he expressed he can say he would block her but would need to unblock her once at work in order to communicate. I felt so upset and hurt by this. Bf and I would talk weekly and he was distant and cold sometimes and would yell. I would shut down in order to avoid further conflict. i was engaging in self harm and knew I needed to find another therapist that works with trauma. I was able to find another therapist and one of my homework was to write in a journal. Before the session my bf and I spoke about him stopping by the house. He ended up not being able to come and I felt really hurt because I felt like lately he would make excuses on what he can’t come home. I was so angry about everything that I wrote in my journal that he’s irresponsible, and he’s a coward for abandoning me. I also said he probably uses to people to get empathy from them, that he probably used me as atm. I also said he is now leaving the relationship with more th I he like apartment history, good credit score, and I’m depleted money wise because I lent him money and now my credit score is down due to parking bills from when he used my old car while unemployed. i didn’t mean any of those things I said. I was really hurt and upset that I started to question who is as a person. I never imagined he would betray me and then betray me and leave me all alone. He is now not speaking to me because I forgot I left my journal out and he read it. He said he doesn’t feel safe around me and I have used her fears and vulnerability against him. That wasn’t my intention. How can I prove to him that I didn’t mean those things?
  8. AWWW that is so beautiful!Congratulations. I hope you guys work out and please try not to make the same mistake again. If you start expressing urges do try to communicate with her or even a good friend or therapist.Congrats!!!!
  9. Today will be day 3 of NC we, after having NC for 2 months you came back and apologized for the break up, we decided that we would date. Face timing you on Thursday I could just tell from your face that you still had feelings for me,I could feel it. Yet I don't understand how you can hurt me twice .I told you that we need time apart and you need to figure out what you want and if you want me you have to be capable of being the man that I need you to be the one that doesn't break up with me every other year and you know where to find. Today , I am having a really bad day. i have thought about you all day. I miss you more than anything but I know its best if I'm not in your life. I pray you come back so that you can do right by me. I just want to make to you happy,love you,and take care you.I love you so much.
  10. My ex and I have been on and off for 4 years due to him breaking up with me twice. I am finally deciding to cut the cord in hopes that he realizes what he has and wants and mans up because I am really tired of having a roller coaster relationship but anyway. I have two stories. My sorority sister was dating this guy that she really liked in high school. One day she was heading to go on vacation with her family and was told by her friend that her bf cheated on her. When my sorority sister returned she dumped him and cut him off completely. After that he moved on to do whatever and she ended up dating another guy for about three years. In her sophomore year of college she reunited with her ex and a year later he proposed and eventually had a baby girl together. Second story The same sorority sister, her mom and step dad were dating and madly in love. One day her step dad picked up and left with no explanation. My sorority sister's mom and became really depressed and tried to commit suicide. Eventually she started to turn her life around , dedicated herself to church and her kids and a year later my sorority sister's step dad returned begging her mom to take him back and now they are married and happy more than ever. They still don't really know the details on way he left but hey it is what it is. In other news Miley Cyrus and Liam Hemsworth are dating again!I love them together.
  11. I seriously ing hate your guts. Everything is being brought to the light and i refuse to talk to you ever again . I blocked you so you cant get to me. Good riddens desmond. You were a horrible boyfriend ,who used me to feed your ego. Now you refuse to talk to me because someone doesn't want you to be with me.i hope you rot in hell.
  12. Had a dream about you today that you were dating my friend and you treated her better than you ever treated me. I woke up and felt sadness. I think thats what scares me the most you will treat the next person better than you ever treated me which isn't fair because I never did anything to hurt you. smh
  13. well I don't really know what day it is but it has been three weeks of NC. I have not heard from him since the break up.I have finally accepted it.I am still chock here and there but I have accepted it. I refuse to look at his Instagram page I do not want to cause my self anymore pain. All i want to so is move on! and I want to do it fast! I want to forget that I was ever in love with such a pathetic selfish person.l know I deserve way better.
  14. I just wanted to let you know that you are such a coward for leaving me the way you did you decided to take the easy way out and avoid me until your ready to talk. Can't believe that finally allowed my self to be in love with someone just to have them treat me like for no reason. I can honestly say that I'm not the problem you are! You are passive aggressive you hate confrontation and you lack communication skills which is why you decided to disappear instead of be a man and break up with me
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