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  1. Dear Granny and Pop-Pop, I wish I wasn't as naive as I was, I wish I didn't just assume you were going to be around forever. I never imagined a world without you two and now here I am, living it and trying to figure out how to move on. I don't want to. I want you both to know you were my everything, you were the parents I never had, you were my best friends, and my family. I would sell my soul to an eternity of torture and hell if it meant spending the rest of the life I got to live with you guys still around, I truly would. You were my happiness and my light and you were taken away from me just as I had started to get better. I hope you aren't mad at me for leaving Mom, and I hope you guys understand why I had to leave her. I thought long and hard about advice you would give me if you were still around, and I hope I embraced your wisdom as how it truly was. Mom wasn't good for me and I know you guys know that and I know I promised to keep her on the right track and to take care of her for you guys but.. I couldn't. I couldn't do it anymore. I'm 22 now and I was suffocating under her abuse. I tried though, I tried for 6 years to help her and to keep her on the right track. To take care of her and to guide her the way you would have but I couldn't do it and I'm sorry. I know you guys passed the ball to me to lead the family that we have left, I know I know I know I just I can't. I want to live my life, I want to experience it, I want to grow and be as happy as you two were when I get old but I can't do that around Mom. Around Mom I want to kill myself, I want to stop existing, and I just want everything to end. Mom has changed, a lot. I don't know if you've been watching lately or maybe you two are busy having the best afterlife there is to have, but Mom has changed and she's not the Mom she used to be. She's awful, toxic, malicious and full of hate and I've tried for 6 years to crack the code on how to accept her. How to live with her. Or how to make her better. But I can't do it anymore. I know you guys aren't mad at me, I know you would have told me to get out regardless but I just feel like I let you down. Mom needs to learn how to be an adult on her own now. Her entire life she depended on you guys and when you guys were gone she depend on me and I was only 15. But I did it, I made it this far but I'm 22 and I can't devote my life to someone who tears me down in the worst ways. With that being said I'm excited to start my new life and to finally start mending all of the broken pieces that have came to be in my life. I want to live and be free, not for me but for you two as well. I want to be as happy as possible in my life, I want to be able to dream, to achieve, and to grow into an old woman who can tell her grandchildren she learned to be as free as the wind from her own grandparents. Everyday I see the things I do resemble you two, from how I move to how I interact with things around me. My thought process to how I articulate. I'm growing more and more like you guys and I could never be happier to be growing not from Mom but from you guys. I miss you, whenever you get a vacation from your amazing afterlife visit me in my dreams sometime again. I'll be here. Love always, forever, and eternity, Kelly
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