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Gypsybird87, I really hope this turns out ok for you. Otherwise, you're in for a world of pain. Again. What if he doesn't text you again? Or if he texts you only one week for now? You will be longing for something, for him to reach out to you, and that is excruciating pain. Worse than NC, when at least you have control over it. You want him back, that's why you miss him so much. You don't want him as a friend, telling you about his new flirts. Proceed carefully with this, or you might get hurt again, and from I've read from your posts, you don't remotely deserve that. You seem like a wonderful person, caring and givin. Best of luck.

Almost one year without seeing you or talking to you...after all the years we were together, almost everyday, talking to eachother everyday. Its a really weird feeling. Makes me wonder sometimes if the 10+ years we were together and happy were real, or just some f*** up dream. Its also the first time i write in this post...and honestly i dont even know why i am doing this. Hope everything is going well for you, and for your family also. I miss them all, the saturday dinners, the long conversations... Something that makes me really sad is to not being able to see your nephews grew, i loved them very much, and it breaks my heart that im not able to be with them. Hope they are really happy, they are wonderful children. Last week i think i drove by you, i recognized the licence plate, but didnt see you. The driver was some guy i dont know, guess youre with him now. I felt nothing, which is a good thing. Were complete strangers to eachother now, and i guess thats the way it should be. I hope you understand why i dont talk to you or answer your messages. And also understand why i didnt wish you a happy birthday. I dont want to send you polite happy birthday messages that dont mean anything. All i ever wanted was to spend every birthday of your life right next to you. After all we lived together, theres no other option. Im doing great, our 'daughter' is doing great, she really is the joy of my life and i will be forever grateful towards you, for bringing her to my life.You wouldnt believe how great she is, how grown up and smart she is. Still miss you. You were my best friend and in my mind my partner for life. Guess we wont grow old together and take care of our grandchildren, like we used to talk. Well, thats life. All the best for you. Love, A

Tomorrow marks exactly six months since you broke up with me and one month since the last time we had contact. After all this time, and believe me when i tell you i've never in my life felt so desperate and sad as i've been these six months, i still don't understand why you left. How could you just walk away from everything we had, from the life we had built together, from the house we made ours with so much love, from our litte dog who was like a child to us and whom we both loved so much, from our dreams, our hopes, everything we planned for our future... You loved me so much, you couldn't stand to be without me even for one night.. And then you just walked away, and never looked back. No regrets, no second thoughts, nothing. For 14 years you were my life, i gave you all of myself, the only thing i really wanted in this world was to make you happy. Since i started working, the only thing i looked forward everyday was to come home to you, to our house, to our life. Now, i don't look forward to anything. I'm a wreck, and even though you hurted me so much and you put me through so much pain, i can' get you out of my head. I just wish i wake up one day, and i don't think about you. You don't deserve me. You don't deserve the love i had and still have for you.