I am sixteen and I used to be with someone I cared very much for. He was 21 and ended up cheating on a friend of mine that he said he loved, so that he could mess around with me. Well, she eventually found out and broke up with him. She tried to warn me ahead of time that he would only hurt me. I didn't listen to her and stayed with him. His name was Edward. He and I never actually dated, just had sex. He was the one special person that I wanted to be my "first". As it turns out it meant more to me than it did to him. He used me and when he was finished using me, he moved to Tennesse with his dad. He knew I loved him before he left. He knew how much it would hurt me to see him leave. He left last January on the 22nd. I don't think I went a day since then without crying whenever I thought about him... He still writes me emails saying how much he misses meand how he wants to come back to visit soon... What he failed to mention in these emails and chats on msn was that he was dating a seventeen year old girl. He had told me before he left that he wasn't going to date another younger girl. So I guess I was good enough to have sex with, but not good enough to date. I still would forgive him after everything, and I still love him.. I don't want anyone else in my life...I would take him back in a heartbeat but it looks like he only wants what he wants, and neglects other peoples feelings... I want to move on and get him out of my mind but no matter what I try, it never works..the last time I cried about him was about an hour ago when I was writing him an email.. I was basically blowing up on him and now I feel terrible for it.. I hope he doesn't take what I wrote too badly.. any response would be helpful.. I just don't know what to do... It's driving me insane..
