Aaron Hodges

I just want you to know how much you disgust me right now. All I want in the world is for you to understand just how badly your actions have hurt me. You disgust me so so much.

I really wish there was some way she could know how much she has hurt me. To have your first love, girlfriend of three years, living partner for 1 year, emotionally cheat on me for months with another guy and then run off with him... I've never experienced such an awful mixture of emotions. I've never hurt this much. I've never been so overwhelmed.

Day14: last contact I had with her was a letter in response to her calling me to tell me she is dating her acrobatics partner, which confirmed my suspicions that she left me for him, and that she'd been emotionally cheating on me with him. My letter explained all this and told her we couldn't be friends. We were together three years. I was going to ask her to marry me these holidays. Been two and a half months since breakup. I just can't imagine what it's going to be like never seeing her again. She utterly betrayed my trust, but I still love her and would kill to have what we had back. Don't know how to get past this, but only way nc can end now would be a heart felt apology from her