TIMES ENEMY

I AM A CHRISTIAN.....TRYING TO BE STRONG! IVE BEEN AWAY FROM MY HUSBAND FOR OVER 1 YEAR.

HI BEAUT I BELIEVE THAT EVERYONE IS BROUGHT INTO OUR LIVES FOR A REASON. IT COULD BE TO CHALLENGE US OR LOVE US. ITS GREAT THAT YOU FOUND SOMEONE ON THE NET WHO HAS ALOT IN COMMON WITH YOU. PEOPLE CAN REALLY HIDE THINGS FROM YOU WHEN THEY ARE AROUND YOU....JUST IMAGINE HOW MUCH THEY CAN HIDE ON THE INTERNET. I THINK THAT THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO IS MEET HIM...THINGS COULD REALLY SPARK AND YOULL BE ABLE TO SEE IF THE THINGS HE HAS BEEN TELLING YOU ARE REALLY TRUE. THEN MAYBE HE'D FORGET ABOUT THE MARRIED CHIC B/C SHE CANT GIVE HIM WHAT HE REALLY NEEDS. ITS GREAT THAT YOUR BEING HONEST WITH HIM. TRY TO SEE IF YOU CAN VISIT HIM SOON SO THAT THIS WONT BE KILLING YOU INSIDE. I WISH YOU THE BEST.

WHEN YOU HAVE SOMETHING SO WONDERFUL THERES ALWAYS THAT FEAR OF LOSING IT. HAVE U TOLD HIM ABOUT HOW YOUR FEELING? IF HE'S GIVEN U NO REASON TO DOUBT HIS LOVE FOR YOU, DONT. TRUST AND FAITH IS VITAL FOR LOVE TO GROW.

I MET MY HUSBAND DEC 01 IN KOREA. WE ONLY SPENT 1 MONTH TOGETHER AND THEN HE HAD TO MOVE TO HAWAII (THOSE IN THE MILITARY KNOW EXACTLY WHAT IM SAYING!) HE PROPOSED TO ME B4 HE LEFT. WE WERE AND ARE SO IN LOVE. I REALLY JUST KNEW HE WAS IT! IT WAS AMAZING. I VISITED HIM IN JUNE AND WE GOT MARRIED. I HAD TO GO BACK TO KOREA IN JULY AND NOW ITS FEBRUARY.........DAMN 14 MONTHS APPART. IM HERE TILL THE END OF JUNE.........DYING TO GET OUT OF THE MILITARY. WE TALK EVERYDAY WITH A WEB CAM. ITS JUST SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND HIM SOMETIMES. HE DOESNT GIVE ANTHING TO THE CONVERSATIONS I START BESIDSES OHH AND YEAH.........THATS NOT ENUF! HIS LIFE IS CARS, FISHING AND HUNTING AND ME. ( LIKE WHEN I READ HIM THE POETRY I OR WHEN I GET UPSET HE DOESNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY)ITS LIKE HE NEVER KNOWS WHAT TO SAY. HE LACK OF UNDERSTANDING ANYTHING EMOTIONAL IS MAKING IT THAT MUCH HARDER. HE IS FROM ALABAMA.......SO ITS WORSE, HE IS A TOUGH DUDE. I AM A DEEP PERSON AND HE JUST DOESNT GET ME.......I DONT KNOW HOW TO MAKE HIM GET ME!! ITS SO F'ING DEPRESSING. IM SO SICK OF BEING APPART. AND I HATE THAT I CANT UNDERSTAND THIS GREAT GUY OF MINE. I WISH THERE WAS AN ANSWER TO THIS.

NOTHING IN THIS LIFE IS GUARENTEED. BEING AFRAID OF LOSING HIM IS GOING TO ULTIMATELY MAKE YOU LOSE HIM. HAVING THOSE THOUGHTS COME FROM NOT FEELING LIKE YOUR LOVEABLE. (I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN BY BEING ABANDONED BY THOSE YOU CARE MOST ABOUT.....EXACTLY) AND NOT LOVING YOURSELF ENOUGH. WHEN YOU REALIZE WHAT A BEAUTIFUL PERSON YOU ARE AND THAT THE MAN WHO GETS TO BE WITH YOU WILL BE VERY FORTUNATE .....THATS WHEN YOULL BE ABLE TO STOP THOSE THOUGHTS. DO YOU LOVE YOURSELF AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE HIM? JUST THINK ABOUT IT

I DONT THINK THAT SHE WOULD TREAT YOU LIKE A SHADOW IS SHE CARED.....OR SHE COULD BE WAITING FOR YOU TO SAY HOW YOU TRULY FEEL. SHE MIGHT NOT BE READY FOR A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP, SOME PEOPLE JUST ARENT THAT STRONG. ME AND MY HUSBAND ARE SEPARATED BY THE OCEAN. MY LOVE FOR HIM GROWS EVERYDAY. I WOULD RATHER BE IN A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM THAN NOT BE WITH HIM AT ALL. I HOPE IT WORKS OUT FOR YOU SABRINA