Here's a story that I've gotta let out,
A boy and a girl is what this story's about.
It started in the summer of 2006
Her first real boyfriend decided to hit it and dip
She felt used and abused and wanted him back
So she changed who she was to pick up the slack
Upon recognising the New person she became
She realized she could do better in the relationship game.
And so came the boy whom she began to love
They'd sneak off at night and watch the sky up above
It turned into a ritual, that summer of 06
They'd walk into the night and end it off with a kiss.
Summer came to an end but they kept their bond
They then became intimate and grew more fond of each other
And then a few months came and gone,
The girl was quite mean Which made it less fun
He did everything for her but she blew him off
She thought she was better since he was too soft.
About a year later, Christmas of 2007,
She realized she needed to change and made a New year's resolution.
"I'm gonna start treating him better" is what she told herself
His resolution was to stop letting her damage his health
And so they switched roles, she was nice and he was mean
She figured she deserved it considering she used to play on that team
So she put up with her majesty time and time again
He would blow her off and instead choose other girls to befriend.
That summer of 07, he had people at his mom's place
Upon these people was this girl with a pretty face
He kept his eyes and attention on her the whole time
Forgetting his girlfriend was there watching him check this dime.
And that's when their relationship went down the hill
They would break up and make up, the usual drill.
This happened for another year until they finally had enough
They agreed to move forward and keep the past buried in the dust.
Now here's the interesting turn that happened between the two,
New year's eve 2008, they we're stuck to each other like glue
They were wasted, woke up naked, all of which was a blur.
The deed had been done, although none could recall what occurred.
Then came Valentine's day and all was relatively good
He lit candles, they watched movies and cuddled as close as they could
Soon after his friends took over and changed their whole streak
Upset, she informed him of her missed period and began to weap
The girl took a pregnancy test and she held her breath...
"If I'm pregnant I better be prepared for death."
So there she was, peeing on a stick in front of her sisters
As soon as she was done they grabbed it and started to whisper.
For some odd reason she felt a strong warm sensation.
Bubbles started to fill her chest and she waited to hear a confirmation.
Her sisters started to cry and gave her a warm embrace
They said "congratulations, sis." And smacked her a kiss on the face.
Her heart began to melt and she felt her whole world flip 180
She told her sisters not to tell anyone that she was having a baby
Immediately she told the boy and he began to freak out
He told her to get an abortion or he would leave without a doubt
"You're ruining my life, I hate you." He continually said
Her heart was torn in two, she wished she would just end up dead.
The man whom she loved threatened to leave if she didn't abort
And all she aimed for was to get his love, attention and support.
The two families conflicted- one was pro, the other not
She hated being in the middle, she felt so distraught.
Weeks went by and she locked herself in her room
She would sing to her tummy and talk to it too
She grew so fond of this little tiny thing in her belly
She relaxed in her bed, cuddled up watching the tele.
She read all these books about how to care for a child
Her mind was up, even if it made the boy go wild
But soon the girl began feeling lonely and scared
To try to ease her pain, she met the boy whom baby she shared
He convinced her to make an appointment to get it done
She cried and cried the entire time, she wanted to keep her daughter or son
The counselor informed her she didn't have to make this decision just yet
She felt as though the girl was pressured and doing it would lead to regret
So the girl walked out with a big enormous smile
The boy asked how it went and she said she needed a little
Furious, he stopped the car and kicked her out on her feet
During this time it was winter and snow covered the street
She felt abandoned, abused, and completely alone
She went home, cried and picked up the phone
She held her body tight and said "baby, mommy loves you so much,
Oh how I wish you'll know, how I long to feel your touch."
Just then she felt a flutter on the left side of her belly
"Baby, is that you swimming around in there like jelly?"
The girl began to cry, a little more subtly now
She knew her baby could hear her so tried not to be loud.
"I'm sorry little one, but mommy has to let you go...
You'll like it where you go, it'll be the best of the best home."
The girl kept her hand on the flutter and eventually feel asleep
The next day she went in, her only love she will no longer keep.
All she remembered was feeling drowsy, depressed and ashamed
Everything was a blur, tears fell down her face untamed
The boy took her home, put her to bed and went out to drink
He left her by herself to celebrate while in bed she weaped
Enough was enough and she decided to leave the boy for good
He turned her whole world upside down like no other person could
She lost all hope and joy, she felt suicidal
She wanted to end it all, not just for a little while
Seeing her child was the only thing she could ever think of
She looked to the sky and wondered if she was staring from up above
"Baby, mommy made the worst decision she's ever made,
If I could be with you My entire life would be saved.
Mommy doesn't know what to do and daddy keeps asking for her back,
Baby give me the strength to start over, find a new path."
And so months went by and the days were getting easier to bare
Until one day the boy showed up- he just happened to be right there
He told her he was sorry and he would never do that again
He told her he loved her and that he would help her poor heart mend
The poor, poor girl needed love so she embraced his offering
She thought things would be different, he would help to stop her suffering
Things would go great and out of nowhere he would fall
Back into his old ways like she didn't exist at all
They both went to a party and the boy was completely drunk
The girl ended up taking care of him and woke up feeling punked
You see, the girl put the boy to sleep on the sofa
She even tucked him in and asked him to move over
But he denied her so she went to sleep on the love seat instead
When she woke up, boy, how badly she wished she was dead
She seen the boy and a girl cuddling up beside each other
They were both naked, asleep and under the covers
The girl next to the boy was the same dime the boy crushed on
Years earlier when they were all at his mom's having fun
The two woke up and the girl had the nerve to ask her if She had seen her pants
The boy tried to cuddle beside her, pretending like he had a chance
The funny thing is the two girls were actually friends
But after that incident their relationship would never mend.
The boy repeatedly told the girl nothing happened and they were both drunk
He said he thought the dime was his ex- what else would he have thunk
He said she crawled up beside him and she looked like his chick
So he put his arms around her and went to sleep. She felt so sick.
The girl wanted nothing to do with the boy after that day
But like the idiot she is, She took him back to everyone's dismay
Like a routine, this vicious circle kept on repeating
Years went by and still they both denied ever leaving
Things were going okay, for awhile things seemed top notch
The boy would work early, go home, shower, cook and fall asleep on the dot
Every night, 630pm, is what he told her each morning, first thing
She believed him and felt proud that he was so hard-working
Until one day her friend called, and she heard the ugly truth again
"Baby, I have to tell you, you're man's been hitting on my friend.
When we mention you, he changes the subject and asks about her
She'll tell him to stop- he's being unfair to his girl."
So the girl and this friend whom the boy attempted to pursue
Met up for some drinks to confirm what was true
Confrontation arose and the girl decided to up and move away
Better her life and to finally decide its not worth it to stay
Back to school she went and did far better than she ever imagined
She came back the next summer and managed to stir up past sins
She got back together with the boy and they made love once again
They did it without protection even when the girl recalled the time back then
He said he didn't care and if they had a baby he would be there
He wouldn't do that again, it just wouldn't be fair
She protested and protested and then the deed was done
Two months later she felt the side effects and wish she could run
She took the test and kept it a secret from everyone she loved
Except for the man and her God up above
She knew she wouldn't be accepted if she came back pregnant
She was doing so well and it would ruin the whole arrangement.
The boy made it clear that he would be there but he would rather she did the deed
"It would be better in the end, So You could finish school and succeed."
So she booked another appointment and off to the clinic she went
This time her emotions were drained- She couldn't even vent
She went on late night walks to spend some time with her little bun
She slept at the park and told the baby of nature and the kids at the park having fun
She explained in detail the things get baby could not see
She wished he could in time, but again she wouldn't plea
She cried in pain and she could feel her heart tearing up inside
She wished she ended her life So she wouldn't have life drain her pride
Even more than that she wished she could take her baby's place
She wished it was her who would stare death in the face
She went through the procedure and her boyfriend supplied the drugs
Alcohol and cocaine, She did it until she was completely numb
After all, She was a murderer. She let her baby's die
It was her choice to make, it was hers, not the guy's.
She felt horrible and insane and wished she had an endless supply of drugs
She thought of using her body for the benefit of thugs
A few days later she left town to go back to school
She became more depressed and felt like such a fool
The boy was once again out of her life and she was alone
She looked up the best method to commit suicide and picked up the phone
She called numerous centers to try to get help
But none understood her pain and her tears flew off the shelf
She called the boy and he didn't know what to do
He didn't even want to talk or listen to why she was so blue
Finally she sought after advice from her teacher
After he told her he was worried that he couldn't reach her
Her teacher referred her to a place that he thought could ease her pain
Which it did for awhile, but her main guidance was God. He made her sane.
She started to feel better and worked hard at school
Then she was ready to come home- after all she had been doing so good
A few months went by and she was content with not seeing her ex
But that soon changed after he fed her "I love you" texts
She began seeing him and they would go for lunches and dinners
They both agreed to be friends and see how things unwithered
This was a horrible decision because he kept insisting on having her back
"I wanna be your man, I wanna get it back on track."
They would fool around and feelings came sprinting around the corner at full charge
She fell back in love, and they made plans to work on living life large
"We'll get a house and all support you while your in school
All I want is to be with you and prove I'm no longer a tool"
He sent her pictures of the place he was aiming to buy
And told her they'd spend the day together, but instead hung with the guys
She was upset, curious and confused altogether
He called her and said he booked a romantic trip to make her feel better
But she couldn't go, she needed him to prove he was being serious,
So she asked him to talk to her parents and he grew absolutely nervous.
At first he agreed as long as she initiated contact
He didn't wanna sneak around even if her parents hated him for all the facts
So although she was hesitant, she told her parents the truth
Her mom said "fine, but he needs to talk to your father too."
And so she told him what happened and he refused to do it.
He said he was confused, hated them too, and caused a fit
He said he'd always love her and she'd always have his heart
But he was not happy and they needed to be apart
She fell for him, even after she knew she shouldn't
She told her parents and now she totally blew it
She felt like an idiot and started feeling suicidal
Everything she did, she was still sent to the dump, collecting in a large pile
Unwanted and rejected she considered her whole life
All she wanted was for him to one day make her his wife
She felt like she threw her life away to make him happy
But it was never enough and this made her feel real crappy
He comes and goes when he pleases not knowing how much it hurts her
She sits on the couch while her sight is nothing but a blur
As tears run down her face, she sits there writing a poem about a boy
She feels nothing but used and thrown it like a used, useless toy...
